Happy mother’s day to all that it applies, and I hope that all of the rest get to spend a happy mother’s day with theirs. I am getting ready for this evening when I will be getting together with my family to spend mothers day with my mom. I made some banana muffins and bread for my daughters birthday as well and feel like I am on top of all that I need to be. I have to work today and welcome the routine. I know that if I work every day then I can pay down my debts more quickly, and I think of you all when I am there because it is in this frame of mind that I find peace. One might think that working every day would get tedious and tiring. It does, to a point, but it also serves as a reminder of the new path that I am on and it gives me a newly defined purpose that helps to motivate me. I will work until I am better and my finances are better. It is the path that I decided was my penance for all of the harm that i have done to myself. I will walk it happily and with purpose until o am sure that i am healing. I hope that everyone is well and strong and gamble free today. If you are wondering why i am not posting how many days i am gamble free it is because i do not think about them anymore. I keep all thoughts of gambling as far from my day as possible, and counting them only reminds me of them. I have not gambled since my relapse almost one month ago. I will not gamble today
