Congratulations libu on making the step to self exclude. It’s really hard to do as I no how those casinos string us along. There is lots of help out there with debt relief. It’s just a matter of getting the knowledge of someone who can help you with that. Talk to a fincial advisor or one of the many debt relief trustess out there that can give you some advice on what you can do. I personally am just pushing myself to pay it myself but thats because I can right now. The biggest thing is getting yourself the help you need to overcome the addiction itself. It takes a good amount of time to rewire our brains. Happy your hear and wishing you all that have made comments strength in your recovery.
I wanted to post something in regards to my own issues today. I notice that I still struggle with this need to be perfect in the sense that I feel if I’m showing despair in anyway that it’s bad. I saw this qoute that popped up and it said that ,” you don’t have to be postive all the time. It’s perfectly OK to feel sad,angry,annoyed, frustrated,scared or anxious. Having “feelings” does not make you a negative person it makes you human. I definitely needed that kick in the head because I get so bent out of shape if I’m showing any of those feelings as if it’s wrong. When I was a kid I wasn’t aloud to show emotions or feelings my step dad that raised me would record me crying or having tantrums as a kid and play it back to me telling me how stupid I sounded and to stop. So now still after all those years I still think I’m defective if I show any feelings or emotions to things. It’s sad when I think about it how long I’ve carried that inability to be ok with feeling anything. I relaize those emotions and feelings are uncomfortable for others but it’s expression were ment to have. To many people are numb like I was and or taught like I was to not show feelings/emotions. Probably why i got into trades because you literally just listen to people yell at each other all day because showing any other feelings is considered weak. I’m a women were naturally emotional so therefore I need to accept that it’s OK to be just that. I need to work on letting myself be human and not some emotionally challenged robot.
Today I’m grateful that I got a lock and key to a women’s washroom on my jobsite site because it’s the simple things in life that make your day lol. I’m grateful for the ability to work hard as I’ve lost alot weight in the last few weeks which I needed and I’ve gained alot of strength. I’m grateful for fresh veggies and a healthy diet because my body needs the nutrients.