Hi steph,
It’s ok to relapse. It happens to all addicts so give yourself permission to be pissed with yourself and then start again. The worst thing you can do is let it fuel the despair that will keep you n the cycle that brings you back again and again. You can celebrate your time of abstinence as well as kick yourself in the butt for relapse. Remember how it felt to be free of that monkey on your back. Know how miserable the relapse has made you feel and move on. There are so many times in a persons daily life when they do something that they said they wouldn’t do- eat a donut, buy something they shouldn’t, forget to exercise- and this is just like that. Learn what made you start again and adapt your life again to avoiding it. I admire you so much for being able to do 3 months. I can’t get through 7 days at this point. I will vow to try to do 7 days and you start on your 4 month goal??? Starting again is all you can do other than dwelling on a mistake and letting it take back your life. What’s it going to be?
