I i dont know if i have deppresion,but probably i do,really dont know.Since my father died nothing was the same.I was trying to do my best in life,to make him proud upstairs.But since that day i was never truly happy,he was not there when i bought my first car,when i invented in our house from money that i earned abroad,really thats a big whole that probably never will be filled.Im really sad that you have to go through this,its good that you cried,its the best way to let the bad thoughts out.I sure cant imagine what are you going through,iv never been drug addict,i v been using marijuana for some period of time but that was long ago.I just feel you when you write in these posts,you seem like a honest and caring person.Dont let anyone bring you down,you deserve to have happy life and there is always a chance.Keep your head up,sun will shine again.
