Hi Cruising,
Put as many barriers in place as possible. I tell my parents immediately when I have urges and they are able to calm me down and point me in the right direction. See if you can talk to someone. Don’t try ‘testing’ if you can control this addiction. We addicts can never do this gambling again. We have a problem and the only solution is to just not do it. And stay as far away as possible.
You can beat this. I am rooting for you.
One day at a time!