Hi DE,
You did sound quite low and panicked in your post. Yes you are in your mid-thirites (a mere baby) and you are worried about time running out. Once we kick addiction and time wasting activities we have so much time. Do u know I have an extra 10 hours every Saturday since I stopped drinking. (Not sure why I stopped .just decided the weekend hangovers weren’t working for me anymore(. I have probably en extra ten hours every day on top of that since I stopped gambling. Think of all the time you will have once the constant bug leaves your system.and u can think about normal things like buying clothes and going out.
Just this morning I watched a video about the process being more influential than the goal. Its hard for us to let go of the need for instant success but here’s a link..see what you think.