“We made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.”
My self-will is predictable
So what is my self-will? Sometimes its total withdrawal from all other things and isolation in my mind. I end up living a very lonely and self-absorbed existence. Self-will causes me to act / to the exclusion of any considerations / other than what we want. We ignore the needs and feelings of others. We barrel through, stampeding over anyone who question our rights to do whatever we want. We become tornadoes, whipping through the lives of family, friends and even strangers, totally unconscious of the path of destruction we have left behind. If circumstances aren’t to our liking, we try to change them by any means necessary to achieve our aims. We try to get our own way at all costs. We are so busy aggressively pursuing our impulses that we completely lose touch with our conscience and with God.