Hi Jazz,
Wow, I read your post. Good job on self-excluding! I want you to know that you are not alone. We have ALOT in common. My husband is a dairy farmer and has a full-time job as well. When you wrote, "I want to spend time with you, like normal married people." OMG, I have said that to my husband so many time over the past 20 years. He also ignored my gambling and didn’t say anything when I would be at the casino for 12-16 hours at a time. He was happy if I was distracted from him not being around. Then he could work as much as he wanted and knew I could not say anything about it.
You sound like a great person! I know it is hard to not be down on yourself. You will work it out. It will take time…I have been at this for a couple of years and still slipped up just last night. I hope we can keep communicating out here, I really connected with what you had to say. Stay strong and take care of yourself.
LisaNot Gambling…one day at a time
