Hi CB
Good to hear that you are feeling stronger even if you are not completely clear of the associated worries.
Have you asked advice from the bank regarding the loan? Ae they aware that it is your husband loan and that he has a gambling addiction. Maybe if you could find out where you husband is, you could forward his address to the bank so that they can chase him, rather than you having to do it. It possibly feels a little underhand directing a creditor to your husband but a gambler, often needs to feel the pain of his actions before he will take responsibility.
I think he is probably not deliberately stringing you along, he is probably more likely to be putting actions or decisions off until tomorrow, hoping that something will turn up, or his luck will change, or you will back off and forget.
I’ve never asked you how you are feeling in yourself – it’s not easy ending a marriage that wouldn’t have been all bad. Love doesn’t just disappear although, I believe, it can be strangled slowly over time and that is possibly what has happened to you. Are you getting any support with your emotions, never mind the gambling? Do you have siblings? Are your friends supportive?
I agree, the frustrating is massive and it is impossible not to be impatient but finding yourself again can be very exciting and rewarding.
Speak soon
Velvet