I am not completely new to the site but new to the journaling side of things:  I am hoping th is will be thraputic for me to wite down some of the things I have gone through and are going through currently.  
I am 48 year old guy and have gambled since I was in 1st grade.  I have quit several times in my life but always have gone back to it, which ultimately ends badly.  My gambling has been progressing like the titanic into that iceberg.   I have lost everything from a financial perspective and still have not been public with where this is at.  Each episode got me more depressed to the point where i really didnt see a way oot and felt at peace with ending the situation (weird feeling to be ok with the end).  Soul searching and my type A personality allowed me to not allow this disorder to ebd up on my gravestone…..My goal is to get my life back and get back to the old person that I was:  23 days free as of today….         Regards,Wishbonere-paying it forward