yeah-amazing how your attitude improves on full stomach and a cup of coffee–but my tears probably diluted the coffee caffeine i need to stay awake to work my backside off today for giant loss yesterday.but i just drove up in the nissan gtr sports car to the bank atm to look like a winner when you and i know i real loser..there bought my milk and weeties–a real mans dinner 12 hours overdue-and really lashed out and bought one banana–after all we must economise on every thing else to suffer to feed the habit.–but not feed ourselves..so i realistic–i going to lose more than yesterdays takings–i lose todays anticipated-i rang appointments of my customers to cancel todays takings–so the loss is magnified double–because i aint got the energy to be a fire and brimstone salesman today-let alone joke and smile as is my normal character..but good news -i can catch up on my sleep i denied but did make appointment with my hairdresser-so i can fall asleep in her chair on appoinment at 4pm–after my nap i to have right now..i just tell the girls cut two inches of my hair and ten years off my appearnce with my standard tint-grey to original light brown..we salesman must look the part–not just the old bags and hags my age doing same –but i generally fit in well with them with my stories and trials and tribulations and scandals they love to hear.but good news i be fit to turn up at my gamblers anonymous meeting tonite-that more essential than work today-my mental health is top priority–as is all we gamblers,,no more tears of sadness–they be tears of joy–if i beat this habit-i sorry i have no joke today for usa fan i have.but dont worry –my mate fred -he went to the races- i tell you that one-when i feel more positive and energetic.and for those of you who ask-my pet rock is handling the crisis better than me todayget a life-or get stuffed well and truly by a poker machine