Hi everyone sorry to be such a downer, i am posting this so it may help someone else. I really tried so hard, i really did, almost five months. I did everything i could and it took me one moment of insanity to totally ruin myself again. I am totally shattered. I am devastated. If you think of going back think of this. When i returned this time i lost more quicker than i have ever done. The progression is scary. It is frightning how quickly it got hold. For one irrational minute i thought that $30 dollars wouldnt hurt. there went all i had worked for two days later. I just feel like giving up. I feel like going to sleep and never waking up..i simply dont know how to get through this again. it is agony. It is torture. I cant settle, i am so anxious and such a nervous wreck. I just dont know how to do this again
Chubby
