[zebrahooves]

Thank you so much for your warm welcome and kind words Dunc and JVR. Thank you for sharing your story and I’m so sorry to hear about your marital breakup JVR. I too am afraid of such a scenario, especially after this relapse. My wife is kind and understanding. She’s also incredibly good with money, frugal and responsible. I don’t want to pull her into this at all.

Day2 update – I did a check-in with the gamcare chatroom yesterday. I’ve made a pledge to myself to do a check-in every day whenever I’m free (not in meetings etc.).
Because of the nature of what I did, the debts take a day or 2 to come due while the money I get is instantaneous. Tomorrow, I’ll have £650 pulled from my account and I’ll have £550 to cover it, a net loss of £100. That’ll be the last of it. After that, I’ll basically have maybe £200 to last me to my next paycheque. If I was single, that’d be enough. Reality is I’m going to have to borrow money, probably from a friend to make it. And I hate having to do that. I think that’s what gets me the most about this. It affects others, and it affects my self-esteem and self-confidence.

Regarding trading and the knowledge needed to do it. As someone who’s ‘done it’ for 10 years. It’s still no better than gambling if we do it irresponsibly. Best way is to simply invest and leave it alone, that’s how people grow responsible pensions. Not buying here, selling there, losing it all. I don’t even want to think about the ‘what if’, of what i’ve done. That goes down a dark path. But yeah, here I am. Day 2 on the board.

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