[Yellow brick road765]

Thank you for replying! If I’m honest I think when I found him out, the first time it literally was just an excuse to get away with what he’s had been doing. Which would just be unforgivable. I think it’s probably been ongoing on and off over the years we have been together, slowly getting worse.
I’m so furious at the moment, I just keep going round in circles about what to do in my mind, one minute I’m telling myself I’ll tell him to go, the next minute I’m feeling sorry for him and I should be more understanding, I also don’t want to disrupt the children, or upset them if I suddenly kick dad out.

I think he just won’t admit to himself it’s become an issue. And that’s why he’s not really helping himself. Which for me is more infuriating, I asked again tonight for him to delete any free gambling games, and I can gaurentee it will still be there in the morning when he gets back from work.

After the first time I did say if I caught him out again it would be over for us. So part of me feels I now need to follow through on what I said, but the other part of me worries that could be the worst thing to do.

He even had to cheek to say to me earlier, that I’m bad at wasting money! Like Ermm excuse me! Just couldn’t believe he said it.

I have had a quick look on the f&f cycle earlier and did relate to some of the stages, will have a more in depth read through now I’m alone this evening. I’ve also tried to find groups local on google he can go to, but they are all 30 miles away! We haven’t a car, because of the money hes gambled away we just can’t afford it, so can’t travel that far,
I did make him go to the doctors to see if they can refer him somewhere but I have a feeling he just went and said he’s depressed as when he came back he had a bag of anti depressants (which he’s not bothered to start taking yet) and said they won’t refer him for 2mnths! Eurgh right now I can’t see past my own anger to make clear decisions.

Thank you for your reply it’s good to hear from someone who gets it! Friends are supportive but haven’t been through anything like this so they don’t know what to say or do really.

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