[xinstory1990]

I had been gambling on both online and casino, in fact, I own big money, today I just borrow another amount trying to come back and I just lose it, seriously I feel evil for myself

[xinstory1990]

Hi less! I know what you feel right now, because I’m at the same situation now, maybe worse than you, I started gambling back in high school, so far there’s already 6 years Im a compulsive gambler, and I wanna share a little bit of my story, I became a liar in the eyes of my family because I lost thousand and thounsand of dollars among these years, I could have a really good college life because my family supported me but I ruined it, instead I use all the college fund on gambling, last year my mother died with cancer, at her last moment she drag a girl that she likes veryu much, who is my wife right now, and of course, she was hoping me to quit gblimg and become a better person withy wife. But now, I mean today, I just lost a big amount that I can’t afford from my wife Andy dad’s savings on college football, in fact, that money my dad gave me for another purposebut now I don’t even know how to talk to him. Also my wife, she gave me that money that is supposed to send to her parents, a couple months ago she already found me I was gambling and that time I really hurt her, and she gave her words that if she found me back on gambling again she would leave me forever… Right now I really want to talk to somebody that understand my feelings, so i came Bk to this forum( I already inscribed back to 2012 but you know, compulsive gambler used to hate this kind of forums until their life choke, like my situation) so feel free to contact me, I will catch up with you later. And God bless us

[xinstory1990]

Originally posted by stanciulete
Thanks xin for your lasts words..thats help me…yesterday when i bet..i had a strange feeling..i’ve never meet that feeling..i don’t know to explain it..was something new…was stronger that our illness..hope i will quit..you are on the good road..i will learn for my economist licence and tourist..on 19 july..i will get it..i hope..i will finish my university..ohh..i will be so relieved..i have plans ..after i talk with my family..they love me and want to be cure..i want to work on a cruise ship…i want to see the world and make some money..learn german…or swedish..i feel that in last days i’m changing..and now..i have this gambling therapy ..were i read what i read…everyone ruin his and another more lifes…thats not good…i feel like i want to know about you everyday..i want to be good..forward with enthusiasm the week when i’m not at work…i will start go at gym..becouse in last month..i forgot myself…i’ve played since i had 7 years old football..and at 20 years i’ve good 20 surgerys at a difference in 9 months..my knee was devastetad..my cruciat ligaments..after first surgery i was blasted..my psyche goes down…but my girl was close…my mom was for me..but..the devil was at next door..and drag me on online betting..when i was learning to walk again i was playing online..and thats how i really start to play big stakes..i **** my girl and parents a lot…they cannot even speak with me…now we are on the right track..lord help us.
Brother when you tell me that you had **** to you family a lot it’s like you are literally appointing that I were that ****…. Now I found out that THERE IS NO ANY ADDICTTED GAMBLER WHO HASN’T **** TO HIS FAMILY…I remember when I first started I spent a lot time on casinos, but I used to let my parents know that was school time, even once, there was a very busy weekend for our family business, I was playing in casino leaving the work behind, and when I came in like 4 hrs late to work I told them that I was ******** by speeding in the road… Man, you can’t believe how many crazy lies I have told to these people I love….it’s good for you now that you are changing your feeling about gambling, lets get better….. Today is a busy day for me, gonna work a lot, but it seems that my family **** is turning bk in normal (since they were all tense due to my gambling problem, everyone was so worried about me) but since I promised them I will definitely quit it and will stay home to help them in work,, we are all backing on track…. Have good day without gambling my brother

[xinstory1990]

Originally posted by stanciulete
Thanks bro…good luck…hope you will be good…i’m here with u..thanks for advice..we had same feeling…when i look at tv..i see only odds and favorites..need to go and work on a cruise ship…or..go on a montain . .or to be strong…take care friend..
Good luck my brother, no matter where you go please keep this on tracking…. Today I had my 1st day on work after these 3 weeks I left home, and Yes, I had to face my brother in law, of course he is still MAD about what I did, but I feel he’s trying to hide that feeling cuz after all we are still family, and family will always support you no matter what you did…. So please hereafter think about your family every time there is a gambling intention comes to your mind, please Re-think it as many ***** as you can, or come to here and read all those painful stories caused by GAMBLING….in fact, that really work for me, and I also read a biography about a guy who lose not only his wife, but his parents both **** because him, so after 10 years he writes his story, that is very touching, and we should really thank God that we haven’t become that guy yet, maybe that’s the chance tha God grant us man, and we can still make the redemption for it….this is Apall I want to share with you today…. Just got back home from work, tired but finally feel RELIEF…. trust me man, you can also do it, life is much more to enjoy than gambling, in did realized now that the money I won before I never spent on something useful for me, it’s like I have no fear to place a 2000dll, but I always cry to have a Mac book which is only about 1500dll…. ****, I could have had a Mac book for 35 time with those 53K I lose….but I don’t wanna lose any more chance to have a Mac book, and I can only have it through hard working…… My brother, pleaee understanding all these I have told you, please don’t hurt anymore the people who love you….

[xinstory1990]

Originally posted by stanciulete
Hey how was your day so far…i’m going crazy…i’ve made 2 bets..total sum 10 euros…hope tommorow for nothing..and another 3 4 5 …an so on..today was a bad day..i had a chance to win…but the madness catch..tomorrow will be better i know..how are u ..u talk with B in law ?
Man it’s like you should exclude yourself from all tv, Internet sport events, I know that kind of feeling, that every time there is a SURE WIN within those selections. But you must think now: what r u gonna do after win? YOU JUST KEEP BETTING N BETTING CUZ YOU DESIRE TO WIN MORE, but, this wont happen, cuz all these loses start with a small winning, do you get me? Please do some initiative NOW… I’m on my way back to wrk, today is the beginning of my new life, hope the same for u brother.

[xinstory1990]

Originally posted by stanciulete
Hey how was your day so far…i’m going crazy…i’ve made 2 bets..total sum 10 euros…hope tommorow for nothing..and another 3 4 5 …an so on..today was a bad day..i had a chance to win…but the madness catch..tomorrow will be better i know..how are u ..u talk with B in law ?
Not yet, since last night he came bk very late for business, when he came home I was kinda”slept”(it’s like I feel weird to talk to him)… But so far, my dad keeps critizing on me: that studying doesn’t really help me, anyway that my school career is done cuz my B in law won’t give me help anymore….I really feel the pain now, the uncle who I used to lived when I study in U.S also found out about this cuz my sister has told him all, you know what I feel now? It’s like I was like the guy in my family who is supposed to in touch with success: I’m the only one in family who is studying college, the one who has more knowledge than anyone else in the family, even, my family feel honor because they can’t find someone in the family as brilliant as me…… All because gambling, if there is a time machine, I would like to go bk to 2009, before all this nightmare start.

[xinstory1990]

Originally posted by stanciulete
I don’t want to lose new money…i want to work for them..and keep it this time..im really fired up against my actualy life..thanks a lot for sharing this..i feel so sick..i don’t eat…is terible at the moment..i was such a **** all my life..and gambling is major factor for these lies…i want a change..and these here is a new preocupation ..and when i feel thirsty fot gambping..i enter here..on therapy …and i wrote…i don’t even think..at berdych..at radwanska..or barcelona..thanks…poker..and slots machines now aren’t a danger for me..this is good..and xin..sorry if my englesh isn’t so good..sorry all..take care these day are really hardest days or weeks maybe of our lifes..and we shar it..its good
Don’t worry about that my brother, the writing grammar is not what we are looking for, we both know it, so you just go ahead when you feel the need to write, and YES, every time you feel the “darkside” inside of you keep raising and pushing you to gamble you should come here immediately and WRITE, brother, I swear I will come here whenever the time allows me to help you OK? in fact, I think you are doing good at the beginning already.

[xinstory1990]

Originally posted by stanciulete
I don’t want to lose new money…i want to work for them..and keep it this time..im really fired up against my actualy life..thanks a lot for sharing this..i feel so sick..i don’t eat…is terible at the moment..i was such a **** all my life..and gambling is major factor for these lies…i want a change..and these here is a new preocupation ..and when i feel thirsty fot gambping..i enter here..on therapy …and i wrote…i don’t even think..at berdych..at radwanska..or barcelona..thanks…poker..and slots machines now aren’t a danger for me..this is good..and xin..sorry if my englesh isn’t so good..sorry all..take care these day are really hardest days or weeks maybe of our lifes..and we shar it..its good
Don’t worry about that my brother, the writing grammar is not what we are looking for, we both know it, so you just go ahead when you feel the need to write, and YES, every time you feel the “darkside” inside of you keep raising and pushing you to gamble you should come here immediately and WRITE, brother, I swear I will come here whenever the time allows me to help you OK? in fact, I think you are doing good at the beginning already.

[xinstory1990]

Originally posted by stanciulete
Now i’m at work..and here I usually gamble…but today..i have all of these..today i have a “brand new brotger” i can sherr with him my mistakes…and he don’t jugde me..he only want to help me..that u ..and..this what is here is good…if i’m here means i have a problem..i’we told my mom and father..about my problem..they want me to cure…i don’t have money for a psiho now…in 3 months i will repay my last 600 euro that i have to pay..now i work only for 200…its hard..i want to go out of country ..to earn more..i want a family for me…it’s hard….i start to cry when i think what i did all my life…i’m better than yhis i know it..i need only 1, 2 maybe 3 month at start anf after this my illnes will be more eady to cure..about your sis..and your bro in law…good luck..and i have trust that they will help you..but not with money..with our illness…this will turn to be..one of our first good day to be us…becouse we have our friendship now..
Brother, I feel the same, it’s so warm to have someone to share this life experience, and please don’t give up easily, I know that might be difficult for you about how much you gain for month, but please don’t turn that mind into this: that gambling could help you increase your income…please trust me, THIS IS BULLSHIT, it’s like no matter how much you win, a million, a billion? I don’t care, you will end up losing that million or billion you win + your life saving (again, this is what happening to both of us), I know it’s very difficult to make the 1st move my brother, but please listen to me (right now it’s 1am and I’m still here talking to you and waiting for the last “judgement” from my B.in law) if you can make the 1st step, you can move on following that step, but please DON’T EVER NEVER step back, cuz if you do so you will definitely going back (like what I did, now see how I ended up, losing 53K this once comparing to 13K of the first time)…please keep stick with this post man,I’m not a counselor or someone like that, I’M WHO HAS THE SAME PROBLEM LIKE YOU, AND WE NEED MUTUAL HELP…..

[xinstory1990]

Originally posted by alwaysthefish
Hey xinstory, I feel for you. One thing, however, in your last sentence you state "there will be no more gambling in my life". You don’t know this. I personally find it important not to state with great certainty something very uncertain. There will probably be more gambling in your life. A few months from now, the dust will settle and you’ll forget how you felt today. You’ll think it’s not all that bad and you might give in to a little temptation again.
OK, about your family, what are you going to tell them? Of course you can tell them the truth, but you can also decide to ***. ***** is easier and often ***** better. But it ***** to be done properly, you need to get creative. Here’s an example off the top of my head: You can tell them that you fell in love with this Russian girl, she was somehow involved with the Russian mafia and they were threatening to hurt both of you unless you pay them lots of money. See the movie "Birthday girl".
 If you dine with the devil, bring a long spoon
I know what you are saying cuz it already happened once to me, in fact, this time I “fell” even harder: I ruined 53K dll from my family, despite my family has business and it doesnt REALLY hurt, BUT IT STILL HURTS you know what I mean? it’s like I had asked myself that WHAT CAN WE BUY WITH THESE MONEY? a fancy sport car, a house back in my hometown…. honestly I feel I might said that just by ****, but time will prove my determination, and so I will keep in touch to this group….I need to move on cuz gambling only ruined the 1/4 of my life, there is still 3/4 part of my *** waiting for me…

[xinstory1990]

dude, let’s keep talking and it might help…I have been in this situation not less than a thousand *****, that’s called compulsive gambling, and we can’t find it by ourselves, it’s the same like ***** but it will suck all your money instead of your health…man please listen to me, I think both of us we already committed error once (well, I committed twice), but if we really but REALLY realize our fault then there will never be late… let’s wake up before it it too late… gambling is only a deadly cycle (if you win you don’t wanna quit cuz you want you winning becomes bigger, not even when you lose cuz it’s obviously you wanna chase your loses, that’s why I fell in this big hole from a couple hundred DLL until now, 5,3000)….I really appreciate this experience that we both share to each other, like you said, let us help each other.

[xinstory1990]

Originally posted by stanciulete
God bless and help us…u have a better chance..u are in USA…i’m in romania..i try to went on a cruise ship to work…this will change me..i can bet on this…i know me..but i need a better job..as bartender here i get 300 euros in a good month..you have a family business…i trusth that you will be cured…i have problems with money and gambling..i am very smart..a lot of studys…but this world drag me down a lot…now i work harder to be better..and stronger in everythink…keep in touch brother..if you agree..let’s see how we will be…God bless.
Guess what my brother? I’d rather want to be a guy who has more difficult situation, like the elder people from my race have said: “people who are successful came from difficult situations”… so I believe that a tough life could make a better, smarter and “hard die” person…. I always believe it, even sometimes I hate that I live in a family that has good life level….. but overall, it’s not about what country we are, cuz I had seen people become rich in Afganistan (the poorest place), I mean, the point it’s all about YOURSELF, like my old people has said: “despite your destiny is already defined by God, but, don’t surrender to that **** destiny, try to BEAT GOD”… I’m glad to see you’re sharing your story with me, and I really appreciate to have someone similar to me and share this experience, honestly, I feel very warm now… btw, I just have a long conversation with my sister, she was not that mad but, in fact, she feels sad about me cuz she is the one who has more expectation on me in my family, she is the one who motivated me and being my guide until now, she was also desperate cuz this is not the 1st time I did so wrong (I had already **** to my dad for his money for gambling), but after all, she told me “YOU THINK ABOUT IT, THINK ABOUT ALL THIS **** YOU HAVE DONE….” and she also told me I have to confess when my brother in law came back,,,,,,, and I already heard his words from my sister that :”I won’t pay for his tuition anymore, cuz he already spent it all, hereafter do whatever he’s able to…” I feel depressed now, but like I said, I MUST REALIZE IT CUZ THAT THE CONSEQUENCE OF WHAT i DID…again dude, I’m really happy that you are following my post, and I’d love to keep tracking with you….. please don’t think again about the money we lose cuz that’s just a bit of a hundred million that we could get in the future IF WE STOP GAMBLING, lets make the 1st move, tomorrow is the beginning of a new life for me and for YOU.

[xinstory1990]

Originally posted by stanciulete
My friend..i was born in 1990 like…i have same problem like u..i was betting my brother money..over 13000 euros..in one month..i’m from romania..here are some money..he lost the job of his life for me..only to give me money..now i wanna leave my job ..ive bet a lot of money on my mobile..is a cruist..now i cry..is so har..lets keep in touch..and try to speak about our problem..let me help u..and u help me..
I just got home now, after left for 3 weeks, my little nephew almost can call me “uncle”… all my mom tries to say after she saw me is consolation, now I’m only waiting the “judgement” from my sister and my brother in law (cuz the money I lost belongs to them), I will keep updating this man! we should not give up, despite I knew the either 1,3000euro or $5,5000 dll is BIG BIG money for us, but we both are only 23, TWENTY THREE years!!! WE ARE STILL YOUNG, WE HAVE A PUNCH OF FUTURE, there are millions waiting for us in the future if we decide to quit gambling….. despite my parents would probably force me to drop out from school and helping the family business(since I’m studying in U.S and all my family live oversea), I like my studies, but I won’t say a word cuz that’s what I deserve for being a F**king gambler… Now I only hope they give me this last chance to prove that I’m gonna change myself, and hope your brother would also grant you a chance….. I’ve heard a lot of stories that GAMBLING COULD LEAD SOMEONE TO ****, but I can’s believe this kind of story is actually happen to me and you, gambling is even more dangerous than ***** cuz it sucks all your money and…. I remember a guy who works in our family business, he knows that I’m a gambler, and one year ago he told me that “if you keep gambling this will ruin your life”…. now our lives are already ruined by gambling, but the hardest thing I care is that the big scar we left in the heart of our family…. I know that this “scar” won’t be healed within one or two days, but at least we need to do something, WE MUST DO SOMETHING NOW!!!! that’s why Icame home today, despite I’m very worried how would my sister and brother in law treat me, but I don’t care anymore, in fact, after I confess this to my sister I feel a relief…221

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