[wifesaidlastchance]

I hate myself.

I find no joy

[wifesaidlastchance]

Hi dark energy

Thank you for stopping by

I shut down my bank. Every single dime goes into our joint account now

The good thing is even if I want to gamble. I have no bank account. Thank god. Wish I did this a long time ago.

It’s hard for me to smile lately because of our much money I lost and how I lost the trust of my wife and family.

I have so much guilt. Hate towards myself

The Amount of money I lost is life changing

40 years wasted. My family has a gambling addiction genes I have to monitor my son as he gets older. I’m not going to let him go down the same path as me. There will be zero gambling talk or anything related to gambling when he gets to that age.

[wifesaidlastchance]

Another good day

Busy working. No time to think of gambling.
I need to keep myself busy

F gambling

No more now and forever.

Hopefully god give me another chance so I can turn my life around to make my wife and family proud. I don’t think my wife realizes how much I love her. It’s just the demon inside of me was so strong. It took over everything. It’s like when I gamble, I can’t see anything else. I hope one day she can forgive me. I’m lucky she hasn’t took off yet. I don’t even deserve her. I still can’t look at it. Her eyes shows nothing but disappointment in me. What a terrible husband and father I am. If there is a next life. I don’t want to be a human being again.

40 years wasted. ugh

[wifesaidlastchance]

Thank you Charles. I really appreciate those kind words

I banned myself on all accounts now. I messaged them and told them to close all acccount and to not let me reopen if I ever message them

I might just write a journal on this website until the day I die. It helps me a lot.

I’m thankful for this site.

[wifesaidlastchance]

Day 3. No gambling

No urge to want to gamble.
Can’t even look at myself in the mirror

Can’t look at my wife or kids
Can’t even say sorry to my wife cuz I know that won’t be enough. I’ll just let my action do the talking. My wife hates me but at least she’s giving me another chance
I got a great life and don’t appreciate it

40 years of disappointment
I Dont even deserve my wife and kids.

[wifesaidlastchance]

Day 2 of no gambling. Feels. Good. Spending more time with my kids

The struggle is real

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