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Today i logged in again after 4 months. I had a big need to write what i am feeling now. So after 5 years of online gambling it’s the first time in my life that i have been clear for 4 months in a row. I haven’t played absolutely nothing and i am shocked that i don’t think about it anymore. When i registered here at January 2019 i thought that this would be impossible, but certain situations affected to reach this stage. It was like all bad things came in my life when the new year began. I remember now that 2 January 2019 i had broke up with my girlfriend after 2 years of relationship, lost a big amount in online gambling and eventually lost myself. Today 4 May 2019 i am 4 months clear of online gambling, i have been almost healed from the break up. The reason? Gym guys saved my life. Almost everyday i would hit the gym. My body is better than ever and more important my mind is better than ever. As i said i am shocked from the results. The first month was soo difficult, my God. I was lifting the weights and i was crying….But now i look to the mirror and i say “I made it”. Now though it’s more difficult because i have to stay at this level keep my mind at the right way. Sorry for saying so much things but i needed to write it here. Maybe this helps someone. Never give up, better days are coming!!!

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Yes Steev i have the same thought right now, i want to stay away from gambling because it will make things worse. I have a deep pain inside me. You understand this pain, in fact both pains. I have to deal with gambling addiction and try to stay away from it and in the same time deal with this huge pain of break up. If i add the army and my college man this is too much. I feel that i will colapse sooner or later. So many tears there is a huge pressure inside me and i do not know to do right now. Oufff these days are so difficult every minute. Take care guys, Never give up

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Hello,
As i am still young and 25 years old i would like to learn more for this if you want to share of course. I read all your story and i can relate in some way. My dad was a gambler for over 8 years and he was lying to us to his family. He went in debt around 20k and my mother had to borrow money from relatives in order to pay the debt. Moreover i had to decrease my own expenses and this affected me too. Here i am now being a gambler too but fortunately i did not affect somebody’s life except my own. So here is my big and deep question. Why you started at the first place??? I read your sentence “Despite all that I had, I was not content – I was not happy and clearly am still not”. I wonder if you have so much money and a house and a beautiful family what more you want from your life? What is the trigger here? Maybe boredom or just greed or what? It’s really difficult for me to understand this part of gambling. This is a huge step for you registering here. I really believe you can change your life. Thank you for sharing your story and i hope i can help you too despite my young age.

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Hello Kin,

Try to remember these awful feelings when you were gambling. This thought hopefully will help you stay away. Moreover music helps me very much to control my stress. I hope this year will be a great one for you. Keep fighting day by day whatever the price and the results will come.

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Thank you Steev. Your reply means a lot to me. Yesterday i broke up with my girl that we were together almost 2 years.She asked me that she wants time to think about our relationship. Moreover i am in the army now because at my country it is mandatory to go to the army for 1 year. These two things made me emotional and more vulnerable but i am still holding and fighting everyday. I realize that coming here and reading all these stories help me to concentrate at my target to stop gambling. Keep going guys we all have a fight to win.

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Hello guys, This week was gamble free for me . I feel very good and i am still very determined. I wonder though if this is going to be the case after one or two months where i will have slightly forgot my last gamble and these awful emotions. This is my struggle right now but at the same time i feel reborn in some way the last days.

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Hello my friend…I am from Greece too and i have a gambling problem.You can read my latest post at the first page of forum (My Story-How it began) to learn more things about my situation. Moreover you can send me an email in order to talk to our language and help each other. That would be awesome. Send me an e-mail to varva07@hotmail.com

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Hello Steev,

The truth is that i am a very determined and disciplined person.I have a great body, i play football and i am well known at my town, i have even managed to drive a formula 1 car from nowhere ( what a dream for many), i study at university and i have built an image of a really determined and succesful person. That is my biggest fear my friend, because behind this image there is a compulsive gambler who has nearly 0 euro to his account because of this. I am writing this in tears really. So many lies in order to gamble and for your question if i tell the truth all these years of my hard work and these achievements will be instantly vanished. What a fear this is. This is a great step for you, no lies, no secrets what a great achievement, i realy admire you and i think that you are very close to keep away from this disease. I am starting now, i have really taken some important steps to deal with it by my own in order to keep my image, you know what i mean. Do you think i can make it now? What a dream for all of us to be again mentaly healthy. Have a great day thanks so much for your answer and nice to meet you!!!!

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Hello MurrS7,

I am here to learn from everyone here with my eyes and ears wide open. I am grateful that i finally admitted i have a gambling problem which really hurts my self-respect but i think it’s a good step. As you said this is a serious hidden disease and everyone that overcomes this is a powerful person. This is very motivational idea to keep us in the right direction. When you overcome this you will build new realionships it’s never too late my friend. I may be younger but your mental health-peace has no age.

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Hello londonsarang,

I know how are you feeling and i really believe this time, this year it’s possible for us to stop it. You are not here by luck, this is a great opportunity. Everyone that is here understands his/her gambling problem. I think this is a big step and not a baby one as many said. Pray everyday if this helps you. This has to be our priority for 2019. Keep going my friend, never give up!!!

 

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