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where is that €150 now, Steve and who knows you have it?????
Get Back in the USSR!!!
If only Life would be that simple, Charles!!
I hope you get relief from your backache by the time this post arrives, Laura.
I had a dental appointment today.
In the exact same town where the “hellhole ” is. Well, one of them.
I drove the exact route. Parked in the same car park. It was all like a dream. When I put the ticket on the car, I had an instant flashback to two days ago. I actually felt my legs turning to jelly. I convinced myself, that it was fear of the dentist but it was far more than that. I have gambled for years to avoid going to the dentist. Would any normal person believe that? I had to walk through an alleyway , past the door of the casino and just as I turned the corner, the owner of the “kip”was driving out in a very fancy car. Probably rubbing his hands together -“here she comes again”! But he was WRONG. I could FEEL him staring at me but I refused to meet his eye. As far as caino owners go, this guy is decent. I went to the dentist’s clinic, walked the same route back. Had a tentative arrangement to meet a friend.Sent a text to say “I can only wait 5 minutes”. Had the parking paid until 9am. I texted hubby. He said “I’m starving” . I had chicken chow mein made so I booted it home. 40 minute drive. We have just eaten and now I’m heading back to a different meeting point to walk with this friend.
Ironically, the cost of the dental work coincides with the 3 figure sum I managed to escape with on Tuesday night.
I didn’t have it with me today, for fear of being tempted.
I still can’t think about my 9k loss or I’ll flip the lid altogether!
I need to cop on to Life!
Triggers can be ignored.
When I decide to gamble, I gamble explosively.
When I decide to stay gamble free, that’s exactly what I do.
Perhaps it sounds a bit cut and dried.
I am an “all or nothing” type.
I need to get in touch with The Golden Mean.
By God’s Grace and shrewd banking my now 5 figure sum “PLAN/FUND”(starting with the figure “1”), has not been touched. I need to give 7 days notice to release that.
The money I lost, was in a separate Savings Account. It was a wedding present for my son.
I know exactly how you feel on Day One, Lizbeth.
HELPLESS!
Mugged, raped, plundered-tearing our hair out.
You ‘n me too, kid!After 27 G-Free months , I turned thought into action. Three months ago , I decided to gamble. Nobody forced me. I gambled wildly for over 3 months. Nothing has changed in Gambling World! How did it happen? I had saved £**** (a very healthy 4 figure sum) Started to “dip in”. Lost everything. Borrowed £ * * * * to half cover my tracks. Lost that too. Moral of the story? CGs are not normal when it comes to handling money. It’s exactly like carrying a loaded shot gun in your hip pocket. Just for today, I will pretend it was all a bad dream. Denial is a useful Mental Defence Mechanism.
Very well done on your 300 G free days, Monica. I have prayed for you every day since we “met”! Gambling has a heavy price tag. The priest gave a sermon today very much on the same theme as what you have written. He said, we will always be alone in this life. Alone and poor. There were 3 aspects to his sermon. The Dessert The Devil The Good Shepherd. In brief, he said Poverty is the “dessert” we live in. The result of this” aloneness “can trigger discouragement. Discouragement comes from The Devil. On the other side there is God “The Good Shepherd”. He is always there , waiting for us to cast our burdens on to him…… I would add, that for non believers , “The Good Shepherd” is like GA. Gambling is “The Devil” The “dessert” is when we are in action. Strangely, Monica, you were on my mind all day. I have always felt a special connection with you. That happens me with certain people and with others, there is no link.
Отлично поработали за 300 G бесплатных дней, Моника. Я молился за вас каждый день с тех пор, как мы «встретились»! Азартные игры имеют высокую цену. Священник сегодня прочитал проповедь на ту же тему, что и то, что вы написали. Он сказал, что мы всегда будем одни в этой жизни. Одинокий и бедный. В его проповеди было 3 аспекта. Десерт Дьявол Добрый пастырь. Вкратце, он сказал, что бедность – это «десерт», в котором мы живем. Результат этого «одиночества» может вызвать разочарование. Уныние исходит от дьявола. С другой стороны – Бог «Добрый пастырь». Он всегда рядом, ожидая, что мы возложим на него нашу ношу … Я бы добавил, что для неверующих «Добрый пастырь» подобен GA. Азартные игры – это «дьявол». «Десерт» – это когда мы действуем. Странно, Моника, я весь день думал о тебе. Я всегда чувствовал особую связь с тобой. У меня такое бывает с определенными людьми и с другими, связи нет.
Don’t waste your time Geordie
I can see what you mean exactly.
“what’s said in the room stays in the room” so I can’t add any comments. But there are two sets of rules. You and I have been silenced on a thread so it comes down to “shutup and putup”
Is GT losing control?
The lunatics running the asylum!!!??
Support , my fat ass!!!!I need to re phrase that, Monica.
I don’t mean keep looking back. I meant remember what has brought you to this hell.Hi Sherrie,
It is VERY difficult to stop…even more difficult to stay stopped.
Any barriers set up?
Do you still attend GA?I don’t do “Ganging Up”Geordie!
I am capable of being myself without back up!
“If you’r e not yourself you are no one”
I do have a strong sense of justice , though!
Has often been my downfall!I hear you Alliesmum!
If you have a look at the Gambler’s Anonymous site online you will find some interesting reading.
No need to ever attend a meeting to avail of the services and helpful literature.
In my experience, having support from your family is most important.We need to look at what lead up to the “Hell” Monica.
You are doing that. It takes time. Not gambling is the first move. Getting support is also essential. You are doing that. Hopefully, another door will open when you attend GMA. It is very easy to get into a rut. Sussing out alternative accommodation will be very interesting. When we dispense with the old, we can take on the new. When you feel ready to take a clean break, change will happen. Is your son aware of your wish to leave your present home? You will need a bit of hurdle help with the move, Monica. It won’t be easy but it will happen if you are pro active.
When I asked a person to move out of my house I was gutted but change happened fast afterwards.
We need to trust in our HP.