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  • in reply to: Neither a Borrow nor a Lender be #47007
    vera
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    I gambled today.
    Lost a fortune.
    Just home.
    Stunned and dazed.
    (No, Jen . II didn’t rip open the card. I ripped every thing else rippable, though.)
    I’m a fool!

    in reply to: Neither a Borrow nor a Lender be #47005
    vera
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    Not one word, Jen but this has been going on for years. If I dwell on it , I will go nuts. His brother told me he sent him a birthday text too and got no reply. Just have to let it go over my head. I pray to God to keep him safe. He is in His Hands. I can do no more.

    Thanks for asking.

    in reply to: Praying this is my last day 3 #47870
    vera
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    Good for you, Jen. The guy who started a thread to warn us off about casino corruption confirms what we know already so don’t feel threatened or anxious. He is blowing the lid off the Gambling Industry (for some reason). These guys are out to get you. Ruthless so call their bluff and don’t let them inveigle any more money from you. When you mention the law, it softens their cough! see it through. You are only a number to them. They can’t touch your account or bill you for anything.

    in reply to: Praying this is my last day 3 #47868
    vera
    Participant

    Did you get any reply from the Casino. Jen?

    in reply to: My Journal: Day One dated 6th October 2018 #46830
    vera
    Participant

    is it 55 days now, Kin??
    TODAY is all that c ounts!

    in reply to: Neither a Borrow nor a Lender be #47003
    vera
    Participant

    Thanks Jen.
    He didn’t even answer my text. Perhaps he lost his phone AGAIN!
    Ah! well . It’s his life!
    I went to the bank and took out cash and am home now. Put it in his birthday card. Going to give it to hubby to hold. just in case I get frustrated and rip it open .
    I’m going to check to see if I have ingredients to start mixing my Christmas puddings.

    in reply to: Neither a Borrow nor a Lender be #47000
    vera
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    Thanks Lizbeth and Jen for your posts.
    Today is my son’s birthday.
    I have been trying to get in touch with him for a few weeks. No response. Even sent him a text during the night (he keeps late hours).Planned to make a cake and cook a special meal in case he surprises me by turning up. (He has no transport so that would be a bit far fetched.) Keep going over every detail of his birth in my mind. Thinking the only way to deal with these thoughts is to zone out in the slots. Would that solve anything?
    Why complicate matters?
    “Keep it simple”, it says in GA.
    Gambling takes the simplicity out of life and causes consternation.
    I spent hours lifting crates of Christmas decorations from the attic in preparation for next week. (I never put them up until December) All down stairs now. Beats gambling!

    in reply to: let’s shed soe light here #48111
    vera
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    Every organisation in the world has some level of corruption but the Gambling Industry is the lowest of the low. The job which gives you your living is  on a par with the “mules” who carry drugs to vulnerable junkies for sleazy Drug Lords. Would you be proud to say, you could draw in “new customers” (usually kids) to the Drug Industry? People who partake in crime are equally guilty. That’s the downside of your job. Of course we all have to make a living but my question is, did you post on this Gambling Therapy Site to slyly draw in new trade or did you do it to relieve your own guilt or are you genuinely attempting to give us the thumbs up? If we are whales you must be the shark. Most Compulsive Gamblers are fully aware of the underhandedness of the Gambling industry (they even offer free counselling, to make themselves appear good.) If you posted here to honestly tip people off, I applaud you for that. Nobody can judge another’s motive but as a CG , I can’t help suspecting there is an ulterior motive in your post. Do you ever gamble??? I would prefer to eat grass for my survival rather than take my living from your low down trade!

    in reply to: I’m not giving up! #41173
    vera
    Participant

    The little extra money is a reward for your efforts, Lizbeth. I often notice little perks and bonuses pop up when I live righteously.
    It could also be a test of endurance!
    Either way, you have dealt with it in the correct way.
    Your mindset is changing.
    The Gambling mind sees money and says “Ya! Money! Gambling!”
    The non Gambling mind says “Savings. Road trip. Bills. Christmas pressies”
    Well done, Lizbeth. It could have turned out very differently.

    in reply to: Praying this is my last day 3 #47865
    vera
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    Jen, if I were in your situation I would put my own recovery first. I would call that casino again. Tell them you are a compulsive gambler and that you will not be going on this trip. The onus should not be on you to make alternative arrangements for any extra guests so it’s up to them to contact those guests. Tell them they will be wasting their time billing you since you have been cleaned out of funds due to gambling. Tell them they can contact your solicitor if they have any further questions. Remind them that they have a duty of care to their customers and insist that they made no further contact with you. Over and out!

    in reply to: I have lost a decade of my life #47181
    vera
    Participant

    I don’t think I even need “triggers” to gamble. “Urges” and “triggers” feel like excuses to me. Why do “normal” people who have all the pinpricks of life to deal with NOT gamble? Why don’t I drink to “drown my sorrows” or take drugs or take up buddhism or flower arranging or golf?? Just my fleeting thoughts. SEEING money, especially 50 notes will generally remind me of the days I “enjoyed” sliding them into machines and taking a deep breath ,relaxing in the casino chair. But is that a memory or a trigger? I really don’t know. I think the addiction/craving/compulsion to gamble is a condition that some people have and some don’t. I know the GA theory is that a CG can never place any type of bet or play any game of chance or toss a dice. For me, Slot machines are my only poison. I long for them. I yearn for the release and escape that they offer. And I enjoy the risk. It’s a disorder that brings chaos and turmoil into the lives of some vulnerable people when we succumb to the temptation. Do I need triggers? I really don’t think I do. I need to keep focused on the fact that order and chaos are diametrically opposed. When we “take the drug”, we suffer the hangover. Always. I need to deal with Life on Life’s terms. Gambling solves nothing. A reason (“trigger/urge”) can easily be turned into an excuse. Good topic though!

    in reply to: Neither a Borrow nor a Lender be #46998
    vera
    Participant

    Checked my bank account. The 7 day withdrawal request has been met. The money is in my current account now. I was fantasizing on ways of doubling it and winning back the price of the holiday. It’s not good to dream. Got out of bed. Drove to the nearest town with a bank and post office.(wore nightdress with a coat over it in case I was tempted to go further) Withdrew my daily allowance. Crossed the road to the post office. Lodged half to hubby’s account (which only he can withdraw from) Drove straight home and handed him the rest. He seems to have forgotten that we agreed to split the cost of the holiday. Showed him the P. O. book. I am saving for the house/car insurance which is due early next month. I am taking care of that. Lot of emotions swirling in my head/heart. Slot machines never refused to suck them up in the past but not today….not today…

    in reply to: Neither a Borrow nor a Lender be #46996
    vera
    Participant

    Returned from a week’s holiday last night.
    All went well. I didn’t carry money (Hubby did) but I made him record everything we spent. I plan to go halves with him as soon as I get to the ATM. Lots of casinos where we were but it would never enter my mind to gamble, except in “comfort zones”.
    I would be deceiving everyone, myself included, if I omit to say, I was counting the hours on the way home , to when I could visit one of these comfort zones………
    Woke up today to a vicious storm, so no question of driving.
    Divine intervention??
    JUST FOR TODAY I WILL NOT GAMBLE.

    in reply to: Neither a Borrow nor a Lender be #46994
    vera
    Participant

    H Jen,
    Members come and go on GT.
    I like to think they are “cured” when I don’t see people for a while but sometimes it can mean they are “on the game”.
    I just came back from a week’s holiday tonight.
    Back to the cold weather from 25 degrees.
    No gambling while I was away.
    Glad to see you are doing ok.

    in reply to: Day 300, c,one bow to a year #45193
    vera
    Participant

    …and all the best for the year to come, Monica.
    I’m just back from Malta…

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