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Congrats Grand aunt!
Welcome to Baby?????????…any n a m e yet?3 and 1/2 weeks is great Bettie…I NEED company.
How I envy you working out…I don’t even know how! I’m serious!
Any tips?all the sevensHiBettie!
I hope your neice is safely delivered by now!
New life! New hope!
Gambling is such a waste of time, energy, money!
Your recent slip is just further proof that self-exclusion is the key to recovery!
Use that key wisely Bettie!
My Easter visitors left a couple of hours ago. As soon as they walked out the door my husband began to attack me about something totally insignificant. I retaliated. Immediatly I felt my blood boiling and my gut reaction was to grab my car keys and make for a dingy casino ( the one I am not excluded from)……..I said to my son, "he wants me out of the house, so why should i stay here"……….then I said " why not"!
So here I am sitting out my urge, typing away and coming to terms with my urge!
Gambling never resolved my problems in the past, so why should I expect it to now?
all the sevensnothing worse than vomit in the middle of the night……and they always wait until daddy is out of town!
Hope the little pet is better and has an empty stomach for his Easter eggs!
I’m going to STUFF myself with chocolate this Easter!
Needing a feed or feeding a need?
No gambling allowed!all the sevensHope you enjoy the movie with your boys Kathryn!
I’m just tuning off the light . it’s 2 a.m. That’s what I call a holiday. Up half the night and lying in bed until midday!
Off work til next Wednesday. Wish I could work midday ’til midnight. It would suit me much better than 07.45-20.30!
Busy weekend ahead. Visitors on Sunday and the house is like a tip!
Where’s hubby off to?
How nice to receive a present Bettie!
They say we get back what we give out!
It tells me you are a kind and generous person!all the sevensBettie!
I have to say, part of me agrees wih your friend!
Ioften thought , like her that any weirdo could come here posing as a CG,( I wish I was that poser) , glean information and …and, and…..do what?
Well, I din’t think he/she could do all that much harm and they would be even sicker than the lot of us poor dudes if they turned to a gambling site to give them a fix!
The guidelines from GT, especially in relation to unmoderated chat are clear. BE TACTFUL AND DISCREET!
Why not get your friend to visit the freiends and Family Section?
I agree with her that the cyber world can be a cop out for some people. We can be as dishonest as we like, but for me, honesty is in the heart and begins with being honest to yourself. Facing up and being accountable is the answer and this site has helped me greatly to be accountable to myself, to all here and to my family.
Non CGs, in my experience become BORED listening to us taking about either our gambling or our recovery. It’s like a sober person watching a shower of drunks "having a great time" and then being with then the next day as they lick their wounds…nothing worse than being with boring people!
I take your friend’s point about enabling each other too…if all we did was slip and report back here and dry each others’ tears then it would be of little help, but hopefully everything we write about recovery transfers into action and thus our recovery continues, one ay at a time.
Yesterday I went with my son to buy him a new suit. He is going to a fiend’s wedding next week so he will have it for the Easter Ceremonies as well ( Thats if the bitterly cold weather improves). They had a special offer. Free shoes/shirt /tie with suits in a certain price range. )I bought one for my husband as well on the offchance it would fit him…It didn’t!!) All on my almost maxed out credit card of course! My son kept saying " are you sure you can afford it" ( I just funded a college trip to Germany for him 2 weeks ago). I was thrilled driving home with my purchases. I thought of all the days out in the casino when i spent double that amount of money and cam home with NOTHING!
As for the "Casino dreams" Bettie,I ould write a book on them. In the beginning they were violent. I dreamt Iwas locked in, that th spaces inside expanded, that the staff were torturing , mugging and raping the customers, that all the machines were huge and thejackpots magnified! These dreams were so terrifying that I would wake up with chest pain and in a cold sweat……..then they changed to dreams here I would be in a strange casino, my time would be limited and my money scarce. I would be frantic trying to get a spare machine, but none of them were familiar, they were out of order,or i didn’t know how to work them.
The casino dreams never compared to the nighmares I experienced when I gambled in real life.
I never want to re live those nightmares, so just or today, I will not gamble!
all the sevensHi Bettie and thanks for posting to my thread. (this laptop keps skipping letters)so it takes ages to post!
I laughed at the thought of your two FWBs turning up at your work place. Think of all the weight you lost in that lather of sweat! Better than a visit to the sauna! In my experience most people run a mile from gamblers. They seem to think we are going to touch thn fo a loan……..I recall one winter’s night being ejected onto the street at 01.30, only to come to my senses and realise that not only had I been in a trance for 12 hours or more in my favourite casino, but I had also, once again cleaned out my account, having made several trips to the ATM. To my even greater horror, I realised my petrol tank was empty and it’ s an hour’s drive from that "haunt"! FWB sprung to mind. Afterall, I had given him so much in the past , I was sure of a "leg up"! Quick phone call …" I’m in **********,have run out of petrol, left my bank cards in a handbag at home…any chance you could pop over here to meet me, and lend me 50 euro… (only 20 miles,only one a m!)……..Silence! Then, "Sorry, tough luck, don’t expect me tobail you out when youre gambling!"
Tough love or miserable ungrateful *******! Never quite figured that one!
all the sevensIknow exactly how you feel Bettie….it took me MUCH l o n g er to get the message about self-excluding than it took you…I left the back door, the side door, the windows, the skylight, every little splink Icould, open, so that I could nip in when I felt hell was the only place I deserved to be…..
self banning is not just saying no to gambling…its saying YES to dignity, self esteem and a new life…Go for it girl! You deserve it. I ll take this opportunity to mention Linnie and Colin who were the two people who kept nagging me to ban.
A better life is beginning Bettie!all the sevensholding my breath and turning my eyes to heaven on your behalf Bettie!
You can do it!
all the sevensHi Bettie! wish I had your energy to workout…Im in bed since Sunday morning! 10 am Monday now. Have to take a flying leap into my clothes to go to the airport to collect my son…….he lives like royalty come to think of it! All college etc expenses paid……I’ve had the use of his laptop for the 5 days he was away. Im working Fri Sat and Sunday so I wont be in the chatroom at the weekend…Its our wedding anniversary today!……..stay strong Bettie!……I told you I had an out of the blue call on my mobile at work from my FWB!……(such a great description for opportunists who pose as friends!)….have to fly now….hubby giving dirty looks….keep in touch!…..all the sevens
how the hell did you do that green trick…?the Irish should have the monopoly on green,should we not? especially on St Patrick’s Day……!….all the sevens
Hi Kathryn…Thanks for your greetings and Happy St Patrick’s Day to you too…..Now to clear up the myths!…No St Patrick didn’t cleanse Ireland of it’s snakes…there never were snakes in Ireland..(only fat cats in casinos)….No not everyone is green…( only the gamblers , who live in denial)…no not all the Irish are heavy drinkers, but those who do partake, suceed in making themselves infamous, world-wide)…St Patrick brought Christianity to Ireland: He banished paganism and used the Old Celtic customs to teach about The Trinity (shamrock was an old pagan symbol which he used to explain this teaching and is worn today as an Irish emblem world-wide)…”The Day” is now a 6 day event marked by parades in all Irish towns, Irish sport (hurling) concerts, Irish dancing , singing etc..a lot of Americans come to join the Irish in our cultural celebration of our National Feast.Of course the pubs flourish on that Day and the usual vandalism hits the headlines. Pilgimages take place to “Slemish”, a mountain associated with St Patrick. Its more of a secular that religious feast but we do have Mass before the parade still….Ireland and it’s customs are changing fast, and not all for the better…….The snakes (serpents) symbolise satan or the demon…our biggest demon is gambling so let call on St Patrick to banish “him” from our lives!…….all the sevens
Hi Bettie!..I was looking out for you in the chat room. Are you coming in for a visit. I ll try again later!..all the sevens
Well done on seven months Larry! You sure earned your “badge of honour”! It’s no boast to say “I’m a compulsive gambler”, but making that humble and honest admission leads us to an alternative place where we can be free of all the chaos gambling creates, a place of peace and freedom and we will only get there one day at a time!……all the sevens