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I read your news B. I m not irnoring you but dont want to say the wrong thing at this time….we re all here with you B…wish we were nearer…The advances in medicine are amazing and when you have youth and beauty on your side it’s a bonus!!
I’m very sorry to hear that Kathryn….another "one day at a time" challenge. Try not to let fear overcome you. Love conquers all!
Bettie! I’m SOOO proud of you giving up the cigs and not gambling either. This is all leading to much greater things. Every day brings greater peace when we drop our expectations and see things as they are, not as we would want them to be! Smoking is a filthy habit! Gambling costs too much. So why do we expect to be rich and healthy when we are blatently doing the opposite to what we know is good for us?
Refuse to pay the bill B! Gross incompetence!
If you gave wrong figures at work where would it lead? We covers for doctors’ errors all the time! Bad practice!
Taking about work figures, have you reached all your targets?Time sure does fly B, so why waste it gambling (or smoking!)
Where did those years go!
Isn’t it maddening to pay a doc money for something you could have discovered yourself!
Have the scan anyway. The docs dont have x ray eyes!
Happy Birthday to J!
Having a party?Thanks for posting to my thread Larry!
For some reason I’m only getting half the page but can make out your message.
Making "idols" of individuals, of course can be dangerous but I do think that those who persevere in recovery should be applauded and "looked up to" for inspiration and guidance. These people rise above their own personal hangups and ideas and adhere to the common objective. We all are responsible for our own actions but by acknowledging a "Higher Power", we learn to remain grateful to Him and to each other.Hunilty is the gift of every "Trusted Servant."
You have that gift Larry!
Time does act as a healer and since CGs are impatient, we often waste time by arguing, by disagreeing and above all chasing our losses and dwelling on the past.
Accepting the things we cannot change is the biggest step not just in the beginning but all throughout recovery. I think we need to remind each other to be patient enough to reflect on that first step.
"Not gambling for anything" is a powerful motto! It dispels the idea of winning, the notion of playing and the myth of fortune and luck. Suffice to say that a CG does not have the option to gamble….EVER!
Thanks for being here Larry!Larry!
I just want to say thanks for taking an interest in my "case", for taking the time to write on my thread, and for ALL the support you give to everybody here. Your commitment is unfailing! Your input is a true testimony to recovery and can only be describes as a "Labour of Love". Reading and writing is not an easy task and it takes a lot of time and thought!
I really have lost my focous on TRUE RECOVERY. Lately, I feel I ve been fooling myself and others to the point where I don’t want to read, write or even think about GT. Once again I’m escaping to "neverneverland" and looking for every excuse to ruin my chances of recovery. The big question has to be answered! WHY?
I need to identify with people who are in your position Larry. Of course, I acknowledge that we are all here plodding along in our own place and at our own pace , but having someone to look up to does serve as an inspiration so just for today, Larry, I’m taking you on as my "role model", if that’s alright with you!
Recovery is so much more difficult than just "not gambling"!You can do it B!
You KNOW you can!
Who wants to smell like an ashtray or cough like a 90 year old hag?
ODAAT B!
keep at it!coffin , not coughing, but that too !!! and ( , not 9!!!!
Bettie 9and Carole) i don’t like kicking people when they are already down, but you have no choice about the cigs now! It’s like putting nails in your coughing. I’m listening to people spluttering and coughing gasping on O2 and with nebulizers running 4 hourly. A lot of those people smoked. The others were probably passive smokers. My friend’s mother is in her 90th year. She has empysemia. Not a pretty sight. She says " we didn’t know smoking would do this" They didn’t know back then. We do. Write out a pro and con list. Just like for gambling. Just like giving up FWBs! I’m not moralising B! I was a smoker. I quit!
No time for blame Bettie!
Just comply with the treatment. Lots of specialists out there who can help you.
Never give up hope!HAPPY BIRTHDAY(s) Larry!
enjoy your break!How did the accreditation go, Kathryn!
thinking of you!Bettie..
We usually feel afraid when we are lost or alone.
You may feel a bit lost now after the excitement of the "pinning" and the leadup to the one year mark! I felt the same at the end of 2010. "Ok this is it, where do I go from here" sort of feeling and to compensate for the anti climax we look for new "highs". Turning to the FWB is NOT the answer to being lost or lonely B! You KNOW that. It’s going to drive you backwards. Now that you have put the "one year" behind you, I would strongly advise you to go back to ONE DAY. I made the mistake of jumping on the first drama wagon that passed by and it lead me down the wrong road as you know. I ve been taking stock of my past over the last few days and I realise I have had very little "normal" activity in my life. It’s either a mad dash and a last minute rush with everything I do and then a "hangover" so I know what you mean about looking at the sins of your past life. I have dealt with a lot of that on a spiritual level but I know now that can be a total cop out if we don’t match the spiritual with the emotional/physhological and practical aspects of every day living and yes, B, it can only be done one day at a time so try not to run head long like I did into the abyss!
When I went into work today there was serious drama brewing. I could feel the antenna darting out readying for another "buzz". I watched the reaction of the other staff. Three of them "kicked the ball into my court" knowing I would react. I’m always the one to shoot my mouth off. I threw them off. They were talking in their own language and their eyes told me what they were saying. This time I decided to back off. I don’t need any more drama in my life. It always leads to stress and stress needs to be released sooner or later and in my case I explode in the slots. So I kept clear, and just observed others’ reactions and chose to work directly with a very quiet young nurse who never gets caught up in any conflict and when it came to going home time I felt releived I hadn’t allowed myself to be pulled into affairs that really do not concern me!
Maybe I’m mellowing.
Keep your head up B. You have done yourself proud! You know you have my admiration!Hi B!
Pleased to hear you had a good pinning experience. I ve been thinking about that GA practice. You know from our conversation that I have reservations about GA and my experiences there have not been good. I hated the thought of the pinning when you mentioned it but of course my personal opinion does not in any way take fro the fact that the event was vey important for you.
If I were in your shoes I would have run out before my turn came. Why? Because I would feel a total FAKE!
Looking back on my end of year, maybe if I had "marked the occasion" it would have prevented me from drifting-or rather EXPLODING into a new gambling year.
Knowing my bad luck, they would have all continued to ***** me with pins and I would have changed into a voodoo doll!
What a *****ly bunch we CGS are!
Pin or no pin Bettie, you are a loyal supporter to me and knowing that I can call on you anytime is more important to me than you will ever know!
AGAIN WELL DONE ON YOUR AMAZING EFFORT TO GET TO WHERE YOU ARE TODAY!