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I do believe we are all linked together, G. The living and the deceased. The soul lives on and so do the memories.
My brother was found dead in bed eight years ago on the 11th August. Silent coronary was the conclusion when the pm was done. He was dead for 2/ 3 days and people were phoning and leaving messages and eventually the family came and "gained entry"…not a good memory for my nephew and my brother in law who is a policeman. I was gambling like crazy at the time. My brother was only 57 so it was a huge shock for all the family. My sister told me he had expressed to her how worried he was about me (his baby sister). Of course that didn’t go down well. In a way,I blamed myself for his death. He left his car to me in his will. It was almost new. I had it valued as I wanted to sell it and split the money with my family but they wouldn’t allow that. At the time I owed 16 grand. The exact value of the car! My sister made me swear I would never drive that car near a casino….Three years later there was a zero after the money I owed and exorbitant mileage on the car….The rest is history ….We all have memories G. Best to focus on the good ones..
Reading Twilight’s thread steered the course of my recovery too. If she hadn’t been so brave to write what is happening in her life right now, I could have been "eslewhere" today!Glad to see you are on the radar, G!.
I feel a bit more secure when I sense your presence hovering over GT!
I ve had a strange couple of days…but no gambling.
One day at a time…Working tomorrow so thats another day sorted. Not thinking in the long term any more.
NOW is all we ve got!I have been following your thread, Bonkers! Amazing how things turn around when we stop gambling!
Enjoy your second honeymoon!Every day is DAY 1 for a CG, Ican!
The day we become unaware of this, is a day that we become vulnerable.
The addiction lies dormant and will remain so until we give it power to overcome us.
I recommend that you read Twilight’s thread on F and F. Very sobering thoughts and her story pertains to every CG, potentially.are you sure you are meant to be walking on that ankle, Nelly?
So so sorry to read what you have written Cat….no words…
Hi Debbie!
Just to say "no hard feelings" and no gambling!
Heard today that a woman I know has a been given a week to live. Puts things in perspective when you hear news like that. She s an old lady but has been like a 40 year old since I first met her about 15 years ago. A highly intellegent woman and strong as an ox! Never ill in her life! Her son had tears in his eyes when he said "my mother has been given a week to settle her affairs!" Life is short really! Who would waste it gambling!
‘Hope your still G free, Dublue!
My friend visited today.
She told he her two sons are "gifted" at poker and roulette! …She saw me cringing!
She came to the Creit Union with me and saw me putting in my salary . She nearly fainted when I showed her my debt. I asked her to speak to her sons (both in their twenties) andt ask then if THEY wanted to be using their salary to pay gambling debts when they are 60! She became indignent!
I wish she could read your thread!Sorry if I caused you to be angry or amazed, Debbie. That was never my intention. I was just trying to gain some insight into why things went so wrong for you and I really feel very sorry that you think I am insuating that you are responsible for the demise of your relationship. As I said there are two sides to every story. Maybe I am projecting my own situation on to yours and looking on gambling as a common cause of the destruction of all relationships. There are of course many factors. Life is not clear cut. As I spoke in the first person in most of my post, I think it should be obvious that I am talking more about myself than I am about you, Debbie.
I was just being the " devil’s advocate". Please do not be offended . What I read or write here can be easily misinterperated because it is of course, totally subjective. I would never ever judge another CG’s motives or actions. I am the person who could least afford do that because I have caused so much chaos in my own life and in the lives of others by my actions in the past…… Nor do I kick people when they are down. On the contrary, I have been accused of "picking up lame dogs" and have done so in the past to my detriment.
They say we see ourselves in others! Sometimes my expectations are two high. Maybe I expected you to read between the lines but on this occasion I have learned I was wrong and that I expected too much. I will have my post removed from your journal Debbie, in case it disturbs you when you read back.
Please accept my heartfelt apology!
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— 03/08/2012 11:22:51: post edited by vera.– 03/08/2012 20:52:28: post edited by vera.Debbie, I would put sedation in his evening meal and when he tries to come upstairs in the early hours he would be too drugged to move!
Seriously, it’s a terrible situation to be in. I have long term sleep problems. If I don’t sleep I am ill the next day. I can’t work, so I would have to make alternative arrangements. Everyone in my house knows about the "silence and lights out rule!" That’s probably why so few people want to be here. I think this man is testing you big time Debbie. I would rather pack my own bags before he packs them for me. Start by not buying groceries , and stop cooking. Then when the **** hits the fan you will have some money saved to put towards rent , even if it’s only for one room.
The time has come to kiss him goodbye methinks!
I often wondered what it would have been like to be reared with a different family too Debbie, but we ‘ll never know the answer to that. Yesterday is gone! I won’t look back! The future is uncertain and
Today, all I know is that I will not gamble…I’d love to go to the beach with you B!
Good that you can get to the pool, Bettie! I wouldn’t be seen dead in a public pool….(talking about pools, a four year old was brought in to A and E 2 days ago…swimming with his dad in the local pool…found floating in the play pool…prounounced dead a few hours later. God help the parents. Doesn’t bear thinking about. The flags are flying at half mast over that aqua centre today Very sad…and WE think we have problems…)
A storm in July, B?
Is that unusual?
thanks for posting to my "weak" thread!What is it with those legs, B?
You walking in high heels?
You should have allowed that GA friend to come and collect you….why not?
I LOVE looking at wedding dresses too….Romantic or what!Thinking about the consequences of gambling helps to level our thoughts , Larry.
None of us would be here if we hadn’t suffered from our gambling thoughts and actions. Don’t let the thought lead to you to actions. There are many people who would be only too glad to talk you out of going to the casino. Don’t try to do it all alone!