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3 April 2013 at 11:38 pm in reply to: Everything is lost. Everything is over. Rock bottom has taken everything away. Cry for help! #13435veraParticipant
Delighted to hear you are making such great progress Izzi!
Never forget those ***** when you were down in that deep hole trying to grope your way to the surface and you would keep slipping back.
You deserve the best Izzi. I had faith in you from Day One. I knew you would make it to the top.
Very well done!veraParticipantwould you go into the pub if you were an ********* Ed?
Just being the Devil’s advocate here!No judgement!!!!veraParticipantI too get that paranoid type notion every now and then when I feel I have revealed too much info on this site, but then I ask myself , "who reads my thread?"
I doubt if any of my family would bother and if they ever do all I can say is that everything I have ever written is true and documented in good faith.
Nothing is ever totally private, even hand written letters so all we CGs can do is be true to ourselves and loyal to our families friends and colleagues as far as recovery allows.
I hope your MIL gets the medical attention she *****. Like babies, old people can become ill very suddenly but sometimes take longer than infants to recover. I hope she is not in any distress or pain on her birthday.veraParticipantDebbie, I just want to wish you the best of luck but not that type CGs hope for, in your new home!
You have made great strides since you joined GT and even greater progress since you moved away from the "B" man! Dumping him in the bin as soon as you moved in is very symbolic and you know now that you don’t need him or gambling in your life ever again.
Your grand daughter sounds amazing. I have no grandchildren, but I follow the progress of my nieces’ and nephews’ children. One of my nieces is having a C section this month so we are all looking forward to another baby in the family, her third! No idea of the gender. A surprise!
I have this week off too. Im looking forward to walking and catching up with a few friends. I have major sorting out and filing to do. Would you believe we haven’t put the Christmas decorations away yet!!! I’m been working on nights last week so need to get back into day **** tomorrow.
Every time gambling enters my mind I take an imaginary pen in my hand and mentally draw a line through it.
Keep moving forward odaat!veraParticipantThe time has come that you will have to make it IMPOSSIBLE to gamble RTC. Give all your money and cards to someone to mind Can you ban from the nearest bookis? I know its not a magic wand solution but it will slow you down. Get a few DVDs and watch then instead of live TV. WE never got that Saorview thing so cant watch live TV. I didnt get dressed at all today in case I would make a run for the slots. Just hanging around in PJs and an old sweater. Eating non stop! I will have to get out to walk tomorrow or I ll be stuck to the sofa, but its better than being stuck to a stool in the dingy casino in Drogheda or Clogherhead or a few more I wont mention in case I give you any ideas.
Gambling is only for losers !
I could SCREAM when I think of all the money I lost and I ll be paying back my salary until I retire to settle my debt. You are only a young man RTC so take an old fools advice on April 1st and keep away from ****!
I’m so sorry to read what Maverick wrote. He does not deserve hassle from inlaws. I know we are all responsible for our own actions but driving a CG over the brink is not on!
((COME BACK LEE, if youre reading this!))veraParticipantI sense you are having a tough time, Cat!
I know the score. Struggling seems to have become part of life for many recovering CGs. I suppose gambling was our great escape!
Did you get my emails?veraParticipantHi Reds!
Just saw your post on Bettie’s thread!
Hope your dad is doing well and coping and also hope your new grandson is thriving and bring joy into your life.
Where does gambling come into all these cycles of Life?
I often wonder!
veraParticipantTrue Sherry!
There is no shame in starting over!
The shame sets in when we try to hide our shame by using the only technique a Cg knows, i.e. by continuing to gamble.
Of course we can only hide until the money runs out. Then we have the added problem of stress caused by further debt, lies and self betrayal…I ve been thinking a lot lately of how I have betrayed myself so many *****.
It’s up to us whether we want to set ourselves free or remain slaves to this addiction Sherry.
The whole gambling scenario based on a crazy illusion!veraParticipantI hope you are feeling better today Libbie and that you had some time to reflect on your " slip!"
I don’t like the "slip" word because it seems to gloss over the facts.
For me (and I am repeating myself here), gambling trips are ALWAYS planned. I work it out in advance. Set aside a day where I can sneak off alone,under the pretext of going somewhere else. I made sure I am free to spend as long as it takes to "invest" whatever money I can lay hands on with the (false) hope of doubling that money. Of course I always leave the casino empty handed.
Even though I’m going through a "G Free" phase right now, I can still hear the whisper deep in my mind "someday soon we’ll meet up for our secret rendezvous". The idea is always lurking in the background, so today I will distract myself in everyway possible. I am at home. Hubby is here (in his own world in the garden) . My son will be my "minder" . We have planned to watch DVDs, go for a walk and eat a simple meal. My daughter sent me a present of the Box Set of Mad Men so I intend getting engrossed in that series ( we just finished the Sopranos). That means Today will be a G free day. Thats all I can predict.
Libbie, were you planning to gamble in advance? Did you line up the cash? Set aside the time and excuse yourself in advance by pretending it was just an innocent outing with B/F?
Just wondering if other CGs think like me!!veraParticipantYour gratitude, humility and willingness to change and grow are an inspiration!
veraParticipantBettie!
I loved the Colourful lessons the Easter Bunny taught you! Especially "Don’t put all you eggs in one basket!"
Also loved the Reflection which reminds me that "the thought always precedes the action"
I must get back to nipping all gambling thoughts in the bud!
Hope you have a good Easter weekend B!veraParticipantI know how it feels to be put under pressure with letters from admin, B!
When we have sick leave we are inundated with letters and called to meetings to "give account of our absence!"
In the name of "Health Promotion" these letters and meetings we are expected to attend only serve further stress in our lives. It’s bad enough being unwell without being tortured mentally!
I’m using passive resistance for now, but when it comes to the crunch I can show my claws!veraParticipantTerrible about the "no pay" B, but it will come….hope they don’t tax you in a lump though.
As for the 13 grand!
OMG! I wish I worked in the bank..
The Irish Government are planning to CUT our night duty/Sunday and premium allowances which are only buttons to begin with!
That physio sounds really painful!veraParticipantBringing the Birthday Girl to the top where you belong B!
veraParticipantHAPPY BIRTHDAY,
TO BETTIE!
GREAT TO BE YOUNG!!!!
From your "OLD" IRISH FRIEND!
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