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Hope your migraine is better by now P!
Drink lots of water!
I looked into the Unmod chat just now to see if you Sad or Sam would turn up. No one did. Had a long chat with another Gt member earlier which kept me in touch with the reality of gambling, in case I might begin to get fanciful.
Bottom line, P.
Gambling sucks !Nancy!
We are both posting at the same time!
I have about 5 letters written to you in my head but didnt get any of it on paper yet! Thank God the MRI was ok. Prayers answered.
Watch out for the postman. I wont put too many details here. Im like you now. Sitting at home waiting for the snow to stop to get back to walking. The snow here is only a mild flutter compared to MD.
I think I will always feel restless just sitting around, but if it means not losing money I cannot afford (who can?) I will settle for the sedentary life.( Heard Shirley Temple died RIP. The end of an era)
Are you ok Sam?
GT is very quiet today!Hi Sam!
Just checked the Chat to see if you might be there???
When I was about your age I began the search for “Who I am”and I came across a series of talks given at a conference in the USA by Anthony de Mello who was a Jesuit priest. I was expecting to hear a rehash of all the religious messages which had been passed down through the years but these conferences were different. It is really a rediscovery of Life and an exercise in Self Awareness. At the time I got a lot from these tapes (now available on CD or online). I would strongly recommend that you tune in to this man (now deceased). He is very enlightening, funny, sharp and a great communicator!
Awareness is the key to Life/Recovery/ and Freedom!
Tune in, have a listen and Enjoy!I travelled to that “other world”
By some strange magic source
Transported in a stupor,
Of sheer magnetic force.
I didn’t wait to question,
To ask whither, when or why,
Gave consent without attempting
The consequences to deny!I don’t remember going-
I blocked that journey out
By using every tactic
To suppress my rational doubt.
Although my mind was screaming
“Turn back ! You have a choice!”
But addiction leads to dreaming
So I just ignored that voice.I thought about my future
My promises and plans
To be frugal free and truthful
Living Life in God’s safe Hands!
It was clear before I started
What the outcome soon would be,
And I heard the Voice of Reason
“What will YOU do differently?”A gambler’s prayer for miracles,
For favours and for wins,
Soon transforms into mockery
Reflected in the “spins”
Seventy, eighty, ninety
Before we see Three Bars,
Maybe God is laughing now,
Scolding from the stars!Gambling is my First Love
When I fail to take control
And even though I have a choice
It takes my heart and soul,
But only when I give consent
To set this” monster”free
From the cage where he lies sleeping,
It is I who hold the key!I travelled to that “other world”
By some strange magic source
Transported in a stupor,
Of sheer magnetic force.
I didn’t wait to question,
To ask whither, when or why,
Gave consent without attempting
The consequences to deny!I don’t remember going-
I blocked that journey out
By using every tactic
To suppress my rational doubt.
Although my mind was screaming
“Turn back ! You have a choice!”
But addiction leads to dreaming
So I just ignored that voice.I thought about my future
My promises and plans
To be frugal free and truthful
Living Life in God’s safe Hands!
It was clear before I started
What the outcome soon would be,
And I heard the Voice of Reason
“What will YOU do differently?”A gambler’s prayer for miracles,
For favours and for wins,
Soon transforms into mockery
Reflected in the “spins”
Seventy, eighty, ninety
Before we see Three Bars,
Maybe God is laughing now,
Scolding from the stars!Gambling is my First Love
When I fail to take control
And even though I have a choice
It takes my heart and soul,
But only when I give consent
To set this” monster”free
From the cage where he lies sleeping,
It is I who hold the key!Glad Carole is free to be with her mother Cat.
Pass on my good wishes to her!I’m delighted for you B!
God helps those who help themselves! You sure put a lot of work into recovery, into work and now into learning to use the Insulin Pump!
I need to take a leaf from your book and get my health in order.
I’M UNFIT,FAT AND LAZY!
I will start reforming very soon!See you in ten mins P.
Dont forget Its Friday for you but Thursday for me! lol!Everything ok Carole?
Im getting worried about you!Well done on coming through a G free year Ed. It’s great to hear that you are no longer a slave to all the plotting and planning to secure a day out in the casino, knowing full well that it will turn into a crazy binge and that the House of Cards will tumble sooner or later and that we have to lick our wounds as we pick up the pieces yet again.
I have a theory that CGs will be reformed in two ways only. No.1 By some Miracle . Number 2 We just “burn out!” For me, gambling was Number one on my list of activities for years. Every wakening thought revolved around getting money to gamble,planning how to cover my tracks to account for long absences from home, sleepless nights adding and subtracting and “if onlying”! What a way to live.
Reading your post is a reminder that there is another life out there we are ready to sign up,odaat!
Good to see you dragged R2C out of hiding!
Welcome back, R2C!
Keep posting!Sorry to hear you are going through so much stress Kathryn. Its bad enough having to watch your mother “slipping away” without having the added strain of isolation caused by your sister’s detachment. As Velvet says, siblings cope differently with family problems. I remember when my own mother (rip) had to move to a nursing home there was terrible dissension in the immediate family. At the time there were three sisters and one brother and because I was the youngest, I was always looked on as my mothers pet and now her little pet was turning into a big bad wolf and “putting her mother away”. It was a most awful time. All the rivalry and dynamics from early childhood reared their ugly heads and even now when I recall some of the scenes, I feel like putting my hands over my ears and letting out a loud scream.
Just hold on to two things Kathryn.
You are doing what is best for your mam.
Things will calm down as time moves on.Just use the “one day at a time” motto.
Everything will work out in the end.You are in my thoughts and prayers at this difficult time.
Good to see a post from you, Reds!
I think of you often!
Stay in touch. Maybe we will meet in one of the groups soon.Words can be hurtful B!
You have proved the person wrong by your actions.
Action is what counts!I nearly gambled today in response to a text I received but swung around to take the exit home instead