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‘Hope you take it easy with the training Charles
One day at a time!
Wish I could run!
If you don’t run it, you can walk it.
Be careful not to “spend” the sponsorship money
LOL
Just sayin’ cos that’s what you’d say to me!
Ha!Do you think an active CG will even notice what’s going on in your life,Caroline?
Gambling for a CG is all consuming when it takes hold….
Just do your own thing
He wont notice…sadlyGreat post,Izzi!
“Choosing to be consumed by the need to win” says it all.
We all have Free Will. We need to remember that BEFORE we make bad choices,
Best of “luck” in your new job!5 eggs most days still Micky
My cholesterol is probably off the radar!
And
Wait for it
Hubby is getting 6 more hens to “mind” for somebody for 3 months
Maybe I can arrange a visit from Mr. Fox!CGs gamble on the strength of money that is coming our way , Mermaid. Payday cheques, Bonuses , Tax rebates , Insurance Claims, Retirement Funds, Inheritance AND gifts via Banks or Western Union from “enablers”!!!
AND we hate to be questioned about money we have “spent”….
Just sayin’!!HEED the warning signs, Micky
CGs tend to ignore/neglect/disregard them
Maybe a mild TIA?Believe it or not Andi, Love and Honesty were high on my Life List too. Sometimes things go wrong. Sometimes CGs are very hurt. Some gamble to hurt others, but mainly we hurt ourselves .There is a self destruct button in my brain. When I press it I become Somebody Else. It’s impossible to explain. It’s like as if the rest of the world is switched off. Every time I gamble I enter a Bubble. A Lone Zone.I see it all around me in casinos. Lots of people staring at machines oblivious to the person sitting beside them.Mobile phones ringing and being ignored is a sure sign that there is a loved one out there calling him/her to please come home. The ringer is knocked off. How loving and honest is that?I even experienced the Fire Alarm going off. Not one person left their machine. All sitting staring, like robots. Waiting to be burned to death!
Am I a robot? Am I Mrs Somebody Else?
Not in real life, but in the casino I become that Other Person. I don’t want to be real. I don’t want to be seen. I cover my face so I won’t be caught on camera. I become the Invisible Woman. It suits me to be totally alone . I feel safe because I know that the gamblers on either side will have no interest in entering my zone because they are secure in their own buzz, safe in the knowledge nobody will invade their space. Except those damn phones that keep ringing out and the floor guy asking if you want a drink . Why doesn’t he stay behind the desk and stop torturing me? CGs don’t want food and drink . We are robots, remember. We feel nothing. We don’t even want money after a while. Only the buzz. The thrill. The high. The reels. The Spins. That’s all……..
And by the way, those secret chuckles ALWAYS end in tears.
Gambling is great when you’re on a roll and winning But being served chips tea and pizza that you know is going to cost you a grand that you don’t have ,soon takes the novelty away.
There is a downside to this “High Life” that I doubt you will ever see in print. Writing it down would be too painful. It’s easier to speak “tongue in cheek” language. Easier to leave on the mask.
I cannot generalize of course but inside those casinos there are lots of lost and lonely people who are dishonest with themselves and have long forgotten how to give or receive love. Sad and soul less.
What a price to pay for a night’s fun.
Gambling comes with a high price tag Andi and the money is the least expensive part.
I hope my post on Jilly’s thread did not upset or offend you.
That is never my intention when I post.I agree with every word in the first three paragraphs of Jenny’s post.
It is impossible to read a CG’s mind, or figure out our devious plans.
Rational solutions do not apply to irrational acts.
Give him a wide berth, Mermaid.
He needs to paddle his own canoe even if it does mean hitting rock bottom.
I understand how it is very tempting to enable him. I would probably do likewise if I were in your shoes. When our heart rules our head, we make crazy decisions. And we pay the price!Thinking of you, Angie.
Give us an update when you can.
Cheers!I’m going through my Thank You Posts to all who posted on my thread . You are next on the list Charlster.
I think deep inside every CG there is a Restitution List. It was part of our training, growing up to send a Thank you note for gifts received. Every post here is a Gift but we don’t always show appreciation for the time and effort behind those posts. It can sometimes be difficult to offer support or show gratitude especially when we are floating in excrement and barely keeping our own airways clear. But strangely we always seem to get there . CGs are survivors. Saying thanks seems to be gone out with the high bike these days but old habits die hard.
It meant a lot to me to see those supportive posts when I “fessed” up.I’m too long at this game now to be STILL slipping up but every CG is in the same boat in many ways We all have the potential to self destruct. I suppose people do get fed up of reading the same ol same . Sadly, we become desensitized to disasters not only here on this Forum but worldwide.
I am glad you did the GMA course Charlster. It sure has helped you to turn your life around.
You must feel proud and humble all in one.
Keep posting.Yes kPat, the Flashbacks can be as bad as the gambling Even worse because we don’t have the prop of gambling to sustain us. It’s good to reflect and see the trail of destruction we have left behind. I think being aware of what we have done makes it even more painful when we “slip” again. We really know we are putting more nails in our own coffin.
If we didn’t have the ability to start again where would we end up?
Despite my recent blunders, I am restoring my Retirement Fund
My payments are due on the 12th of every month. This month’s went in only today, due to the 12th falling on a Saturday. Four down. 26 to go, one month at a time.
Is your hubby still working late hours? ‘Hope you have adjusted.Thanks for posting to my thread Cat.
What to do?
Tough love or compassion?
Is there a difference? Sometimes Compassion can be like a surgeon’s knife. Very sharp!
I remember phoning a friend many years ago to say I was “stuck” after losing a fortune in a casino. I was 30 miles from home and asked him could he come with 50 euro to rescue me. He said “tough” and hung up the phone! I did a lot of freewheeling on the hills to spare the juice that night but I can tell you it was a while before I ventured out again.
Sometimes I say “push me under a bus” (the rolling pin might be a bit severe!!) and at other times I need TLC. It’s complex.
What brought me to the casino? A mixture of escape, excitement, risk, habit, thrill, but mainly lack of discipline and greed.
If I tried as hard NOT to gamble as I do to arrange a G trip, I would never gamble.
GA says members ONLY need to have a desire to stop gambling. ONLY!!
Show me a CG who has that desire!
Most stop because we HAVE to. We are either broke, threatened , fearful of the consequences, under surveillance of a loved one or a job. All good ways to encourage us to stop but my personal belief is I can only stay stopped by God’s Grace. Every time I gamble it is because I resist His grace.
Over and out!In my book , Mermaid “Show me a bit of trust” meant “Get off my back and keep the funds flowing so I can gamble in peace”
A CG cannot gamble without money.
When we are supplied with cash, deep down we (I) justified my gambling by saying (but not out loud, of course) “Well he allowed me to continue, by making money available so it’s not TOTALLY my fault. After all I’m vulnerable”
HA!
Another peep into this CG’s mind.
We are all different of course but the outcome of gambling never changes.
For every CG and their SOs, it always ends in bitter tears.
Keep your boundaries high Mermaid Take this a a warning.
When you return to the chaos you might not be able to stay as focused as you are now.
Not judging. Just saying!I agree, Bettie. Broke can be very good It will save us from gambling and from being too fast to bail out others (Jen)
I sent a small amount of money to my daughter via Western Union on the 4th. Don’t know if she even bothered to collect it Never said if my card arrived yet either. Oh for the good ol’ days, when , if we didn’t acknowledge a present we would have a letter (from my mother anyway)to remind us of our place. The order has shifted, B. Are we to blame for spoiling our grown up kids? I wonder who will spoil us when we hit old age? I’m nearer to it than you. Odaat is the only way for that too, I guess.
Good that you’re getting to Meetings and that you find then helpful.
You sound much better.
Hubby has a bad chest cold for almost a week. Had to give in and go to the GP this morning so I had to get my own breakfast. It usually arrives at my bedside in response to a text. He might be emotionally absent/distant but he is on the ball with practical issues.
Thanks for your two posts to my thread.
Always in my thoughts and prayers B.
You’re my inspiration.‘Hope you are settled in to your Training for your new job Liberty and that you are not missing the girls too much.
Thanks for posting to my thread.
Maybe we will meet in a Group this evening if you are free for an hour or two.
I love when you are there.