I don’t know if I’m fooling myself into saying that today was a good day and that the following 3 days will be good days. I have no money until Thursday (payday). Thats why they should be good days. If I have no money, I cant gamble it away. I’ve a few things left that I’ve promised myself I will not pawn, I will not go to the casino. As long as I can stick to it, I should be fine.
Most of my check is promised to other things. Phone bill, a credit card, extending the loan on an item in the pawn shop (cannot afford to get it out just yet) and gas for my vehicle. My checks have been promised to things in the past though and thats not meant a damn thing because I end up giving it to the casino anyway. I want this payday to be different.
I self banned from a casino thats near me almost 2 years ago. I know I need to ban myself from this other one that I’ve been going to since. Why can’t I bring myself to do it? Why is this so hard?
Thank you RG for the birthday wishes and the advice.
