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Hey bad, welcome to GT.  I think that free online gambling is still considered gambling.  It can trigger feelings and urges.  Finding other ways to fill our time is much more desireable.  My mom was a gambler too, she loved bingo and casino slots.  My sister is a gambler and my dad and brother were alcoholics.  Wow, perhaps the genetic thing about addictions is true, lol.  I have been in serious recovery for over 3 months now, by that I mean I have been gamble free.  Prior to that I spent about a year slipping and falling, dusting myself off and starting over.  You are probably right about your mom gambling due to depression, I was in a bad situation the past 4 years and used it as an excuse to continue gambling.  I was very depressed and unhappy.  Glad you have joined us here and your church group sounds great.  Debbie

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Here it is, February already.  I am not a superbowl fan and almost everyone I know is going to a superbowl party today.  I have been speaking to an old friend over the past 3 weeks, I have known him since I was 15 and in high school, we used to go roller skating together and I hung out with his sister.  We have kept in touch on and off over the years.  He is just out of a relationship, he left her recently because he felt neglected and the love had ****.  We are going to go for a ride today and out for dinner.  He has shown up where I work twice this week with coffee.  Apparently he claims he has been in love with me for over 20 years but one of us has always been in some kind of a relationship so he settled for the friendship.  Again, slow and sure, I will test the waters.  I have always thought of him as a close friend and find myself now looking at him through different eyes.  I have a lead on an apartment that is affordable and about a 15 minute walk from where I work.  The only problem is that it is about a block over from Barrys house, but at the other end of the street.  I really do not want to run into him, but I do like the area and also the rent.  I think I will go and have a look at it and go from there.  Hope everyone is having a great weekend and a nice superbowl day.  Deb

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You know your own self worth, Bettie.  As a wonderful, warm, caring person who is there when you need her I would rate you EXCEPTIONAL.  Luv ya girl, Deb

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I hope you had a wonderful, terrific birthday girlfriend, you so deserve it.  Deb

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Had a tremendous urge to gamble on New Years Day.  I actually fought against turning my steering wheel towards the casino.  Ended up at a friends house unnanounced and made her make me a big pot of coffee.  Went home and cooked dinner for my family and played with Sarah for the rest of the night.  I was suprised at how that hit me right out of the blue, especially after posting about the lack of urges recently.  I am extremely proud of myself for not giving in and I am determined to remain strong.  It has been two and a half months since I last gambled.  Debbie

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Hey gf.  I too have been thinking about Christimas as well.  This will be my first Christmas without a significant other in my life.  Anxiety is running through my veins and I have been experiencing stomach pain.  Whenever I had a relationship end I have always rushed out and found a replacement right away, over the past two days I have realized that it would not be a good idea to do that.  Better to be alone than to make another mistake right now.  Work and neighbour problems will always be there and will always happen, I think they become magnified when there is nothing to distract from them.  I have been thinking about doing some volunteer work or joining something such as a bowling league.  Sitting around the house is not going to solve my loneliness (yes, I have that problem too)  Make the phone ring on the other end, I love hearing from you and I am sure there are alot of people out there that you may not have spoken to for awhile that would love a call from you.  The dust is settling from my recent craziness and you and I need to plan another get together soon.  We need to stir up some trouble together gf, and I do not mean another coach purse, lol.  Luv ya tons and will talk to you later today, will wait to call you for a few more hours so as not to interrupt your beauty sleep (and you are beautiful, inside and out).  Deb

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Does Jim have an older brother?

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The fact that you feel sympathy regarding his son’s situation speaks volumes for the kind of person you are.  I’m glad you are staying firm with your decision but also glad that you can still care when something bad has happened in his life.  It shows strength of character and it’s who you truly are.  I wouldn’t wish something like that on my worst enemy, there’s nothing worse than having something happen to your child.  Hold you head up high girl and be proud of who you are, I’m proud to know you.  Debbie

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Congratulations for having the courage to walk away.  I will give you a call later today, I spent the night at my daughter’s unexpectedly, the baby has been running the household here and mom and dad needed to get a good night’s sleep.  Sarah slept all night for me and was an angel, they think I hypnotize her, lol.  I know this has been a rough week for you, know that I’m thinking about you and am proud of you – no matter what decisions you make I will always be here for you.  Talk soon, Deb

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I am probably the worst person to give relationship advice since I myself stay in an abusive situation and allow myself to get hurt repeatedly.  When you’re on the outside, looking at someone else’s situation it seems to be alot easier to see what’s going on for someone else.  When you’re in the picture, it’s much more difficult to see what is happening, perhaps because we don’t want to see it.  Not sure how much sense this is making, but what I’m trying to say is that it really hurts me to see you being hurt.  The Bettie I’ve come to know and love deserves to be treated with kindness, consideration, love and, most of all, respect.  I wish you could see through my eyes, but I can’t do that anymore than you could make me see through yours.  All we can do is be there for each other, to listen, console and care.  Mood swings may come at a "certain age", but having your feelings hurt and being treated poorly is universal.  I’m just worried that our "knight in shining armour" may come galloping along and we’re going to be so busy trying to fix our "toads" that we may let him pass right on by.  Glad you turned your phone off last night and gave yourself a night off from being hurt.  It’s good to take a breather sometimes.  I’m here for you, g/f – during the lows and the highs.  No judgement, just concern.  Luv ya, Deb

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Hey Nelly, I had my thread deleted but I have your email address.  I’ll write you tonight.  Deb

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Sorry about your aunt, she was way too young to have life be over for her.  She sounds like she was a real pistol and was alot of fun to be around.  Hope you have a stress free day at work and I’ll talk to you later.  Deb

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No need to hide gf, you are an amazing, wonderful, lovely person with so much to give.  Anytime you need to talk you know I am here for you just as you have been there for me whenever needed.  Luv ya tons, Deb

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Hey, where’d you go?  Aha, there you are, all the way over on page 3.  Now you’re back on top where you belong. 

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Thinking of you, gf.  Sorry that you’re in such pain.  Please get it checked out, even if you think there’s nothing they can do.  Missed talking to you last night.  Wishing you a good day at work, even though you’re not feeling up to par.  Debbie

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