[Trish1966]

Thank you k

you are so right and your words have made me think about all the things I could be doing, friends I could be meeting for coffee etc

I am going to write a list tonight all the things I can occupy my thoughts when my pay hits my account and I convince myself that I can afford it but really I can’t afford it financially or emotionally

i will block that last site as I know what will happen and I know how I will feel afterwards 

thank you 

trish 

[Trish1966]

Thank you for your reply

i have told just one close friend and she is there for me so hope this month I can have more self control, advice on here is helpful but end of day I suppose i have got to engage myself, my friend has blocked me from all my online gambling sites apart from one which I think I may ask her to block also, but I go in a bit of a panic attack

maybe I just need to find my triggers why I sit for hours on online gaming but I don’t really enjoy it but there’s something in me, boredom and a release from stress that makes me want to stay playing

just taking one step at a time

trish

[Trish1966]

Thank you, I have found that the help on here is really helpful and don’t feel like I can do meetings at the moment, it’s been hard enough to tell one close friend 

I really can’t live my life gambling my money, I have done exactly the same thing wondering if I have enough petrol to get there, although on occasions I haven’t and had to desperately phone a friend and walk to petrol station, vowing there and back that I will never gamble again…few weeks later there I am gambling again but feeling guilt and shame

hopefully we can do it 

best wishes

[Trish1966]

Hi Laura, thank you for your comments, I have no partner but I am thinking of giving control to someone, I ‘confessed’ my problem gambling to a debt advisor who suggested meetings, I don’t think I’m ready to sit in a roomful of people that I have no self control, I’m constantly fighting the pure shame of not being able to afford to eat at times, I’ feel I’m on the first step by telling someone as that has led to telling a close friend, I’ve read loads of self help tips on here, perhaps that alone might be enough, and people like yourself who kindly show support and understanding goes a long way, thank you 

[Trish1966]

My gambling over the past few years has got out of control, I’m at the start of wanting to stop, the urge to gamble online bingo on pay day is in conflict with wanting to stop, I can’t afford to do this any more, always thinking I can win but reality I lose more than I win, half the time I don’t even realise or can’t seem to have any control to stop adding funds a bit of a time, I can’t even go into a shop and buy scratch cards, spending what I can’t afford and week before pay day kicking myself for being so reckless with my money when i see the cupboards empty and I have no fuel money left, I have told one friend about my gambling problem but even though helpful I’m not sure if she understands the fight I have within myself

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