[TheElder2000]

Friday night Poker night-9pm start….I am going to miss it tonight, but I am sure going to miss it tonight…I told the host that my Boss is in town (which he is) and the night is not my night(but it actually is)…maybe not the most upfront way to get out of the invitation but I suppose any port int he storm.

Did tell my girlfriend I was going to stop gambling and what I was doing, (to include making a real life appointment with a real life therapist) I expected a reaction…nothing. But a lot of of reaction when I do go play. I was more then a little pissed. Her lack of encouragement would have made for a really good excuse to go play tonight. But-

I really don’t like me when I gamble-While I don’t look like a nice guy I actually am a nice guy, but not on the table. I am a total asshole on the table. Guess that goes to the lack of control in playing in the first place. I am a horrible loser when playing for fun, I take it to a whole new level when there is money involved. And when money and alcohol is involved–thats a higher level altogether.

So I won’t play tonight-and Ill be out of town most of the next 3 weeks. I will work on the Oct 3rd game when it gets closer. I I have to self ban-again-on 1 Oct from PokerStars. They will welcome me back that day, and I will have to log on, and not play. But that is a ways in the future too.

Tonight Ill clean my house, again…OCD does have some benefits if put it in the right direction. I am a hell of a housekeeper.

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