[terrbear00]

Today was a pretty good day. I wasn’t sure what to do with my $100 ticket voucher because I knew if I took it to the bar, I would want to gamble. In my state, I can mail them in to the lottery & they will send me a check. I chose to do this rather than risk gambling. I saw a few of my friends out and about. I just said Hi and acted busy which kept me moving. If I would have stopped, they would have wanted to party & get together. I’m not ready to have that conversation. I know avoided it is not good but I figured forcing myself to be uncomfortable isn’t necessarily good either. I will have to go there soon enough. I have to admit that today has always been an easier day not to gamble because my favorite place is closed. So tomorrow will be the day that will be most tough. I don’t know I have ever gone a Wednesday without gambling. Sad but true. I’m going to bed hopeful and I just keep telling myself I can do it. I feel kind of like I’m going to go to battle tomorrow. I am a war veteran so I am somewhat experienced in that. Tomorrow is scarier to me than when I went to war. I feel strong though. Stay busy, find alternatives, work through my triggers, and get through the day!

[terrbear00]

I’m looking forward to joining the online group for new members.  This site has helped me so much and for the first time in quite some time, I feel like I have a chance. 

[terrbear00]

I just want to say thank you for your post.  This has really helped knowing there are others that have worked through this and been in remote sites.  I’ve felt doomed for so long and I found this site.  I thought with the online forums & support groups, I can finally make it.  I’m dreading the friendship conversations but I know that when I say I’m not going to the bars anymore & gambling, they will dwindle fast.  I need to figure out new avenues to make friends.  I keep telling myself I can do it & I’m worth it.  🙂 

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