[tasharoesy]

Yesterday I spent the day with family and kept busy. I still have the thoughts of gambling but my councillor said to ban them when they happen think of other things distract yourself. Whilst in the pub the slot machines were flashing at me but I just kept looking at my partner and talking to my grandad as I don’t want to slip back.

Day 4 today woke up feeling great 🙂

[tasharoesy]

Yesterday on day one I felt so good knowing I had created my journey and had slept peacefully without the unwanted images and gambling thoughts. So busy I forgot to add my entry haha. So day 2 I have travelled to Scotland with my partner and had my first counciling session via phone call. I feel so much better in myself and that’s down to owning up to my problems and accepting that I can’t be like my friends and others. I can’t have a little gamble and that’s ok because o don’t need to. My triggers are down to how I feel about myself and how I deals with personal matters. I use gambling as an escape and the thought of winning makes me think my problems will disappear but in actually fact it created more. I am looking forward to getting back to basics and being happy again. Tbc… Tasha xx

[tasharoesy]

I have now come to realise that I can never be like anyone else and that one gamble leads to more so I’m ready to say goodbye to it. Last night I slept good without dreaming of it and that’s how I know I’m on my way. I have self excluded myself from the sites and last time my biggest vice was scratch cards but this time around I haven’t done that much. It’s been online bingo. I’ve spent so much that I’m actually bored of it and the realisation that my money’s gone in setting in. Day one I can do this 🙂 xx

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