[Swissguy]

I truly have no urges to gamble. None at all. But, wow, I am having a lot of anxiety with the aftermath. I had a good talk with my wife and she is very supportive….can’t change the past, can only change the future, etc. that certainly helped. Also took a long walk yesterday which was good. I need to stay active and busy…that minimizes the pain.

Apologies for rambling,

[Swissguy]

Hello everyone! Thank you for your thoughts and support. I’m going on 3 months of not gambling….not one penny! I feel good about that!

However, I am having trouble with anxiety…specifically around my bills and the future. I get very nervous when I am handling bills and dealing with finances—to the point my mortgage was 2 weeks late this month. That has never been an issue before! I just don’t want to be bothered. I have no one I can hand this off too….my wife is scary with money and has been through a bankruptcy prior to our marriage. Is my anxiety ‘normal? Will it disapate?

I am also feeling very guilty….guilty for what I have deprived my family over the years. We are fortunate that we still live a good life, but it could have been better if I did not have this disease. In the long run we will be good, but the short run could be a bit bumpy. And I am stressing over this.

Hope I did not ramble. Thank you for listening and I appreciate all your thoughts.

[Swissguy]

Hi Charles! My addiction is betting horses online…..so I have permanently shut down the only two accounts that I use. In the past, I shut them down but only on a temporary basis. Not this time.

As long as I stay busy and engaged with other things I will be fine. It is the times where I am bored and alone that I let my addiction take over. Idle hands are the devils work, right? So true for me.

[Swissguy]

Thanks for the welcome.

I spent the weekend assessing my current finances and they are not dire, but they could be a lot better. I can’t let this false sense of security to give me the freedom to gamble. I have done this in the past…things get better and I take that as a green light to enjoy my “hobby”. For me this is not a “hobby”; it is poison and I must treat it as such!

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