[sunny123]

and wishing you are very happy new year my friend. tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

[sunny123]

well dont luke and you are doing all the right things.. the feelings of despair/remorse and repentance will be there, but as you have put physical barriers in place, these feelings can not lead you to gambling and with each day your urges will get weaker and you will become stronger..
i also have similar list as yours and i hope and wish that we continue our journey to freedom from this disease. tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

[sunny123]

***** lost soul!
went through your posts and i can relate to your feeling of emptiness and suddenly there is lot of time and no motivation to do anything else.. that is one reason for my constant battle for one month when i kept relapsing every second or third day.. try to engage yourself somewhere.. if nothing else.. keep coming here and read the life stories of other CG’S and then you can not only learn something from them but also it distracts you from gambling and the urges get weaker with each passing day..
wishing you a very happy and gamble free new yeartomorrow will be better than yesterday.

[sunny123]

for some reason, day 33 is more significant to me than the new year.. only i can reflect back on the year gone by.. i was gambling this time last year.. stopped in the middle of january and then remained gamble free till the last week of september.. worked very hard during gamble free time.. though drifted apart from wife.. had three nice holidays with my family in turkey, egypt and india, needless to say that all was possible due to my long gamble free time.. then messed up everything with my relapse and somehow managed to control it for few days but then made it worse by trying to recover some of my loss and ended up taking loan from the bank and blowing up all the money i was saving for the tax..
glad that found this site and now reached day 33.. again got motivated to work harder.. and this time i am recovering rather than just stopping my gambling.. and it is making a big difference.. my only resolution like most of us CG is to remain gamble free.. but i just dont want to "remain", i want to progress in my recovery to be a better person..
problems in my personal life keep playing up every now and then and will play a big part this year as the day of my divorce is coming near, i am not fighting for anything with my wife and left things to herself.. so it has improved relations between us. i am only worried about my kids.. as i love them a lot and struggle if i dont see or talk to them everyday. i hope after changing my home, i will be nearer to them and will be able to see them more frequently..
it was difficult to motivate myself again to start working hard and concentrate on all these issues which cropped up at the same time and you all played a big role by offering your constant support in the initial struggling phase when the urges were strong and i was very weak. still feel sad for whatever happened in last few months.. wish i could have learnt the lesson before..
hope that 2012 bring joy, happiness and contentment for all my fellow CG’s here.. you have been my only support and i am grateful for that. tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

[sunny123]

happy new year everybody in the pact here. i am not sure about others but for me new year is just another day at the moment.. a landmark for some but for me it is another day gamble free.. i want 2012 to be better than 2011 and it is not just by my wanting it to be  better but i want me to be a better person this year. agreed with vera, that time is one thing which will never come back.. i have always thought whenever i relapsed that my problem is the finanical loss and the mental torture which comes with it.. i always recovered my losses and i am hopeful that i will recover this time as well but i never tried to change myself.. my thinking.. my thoughts.. and just kept on chasing money..
this year with this pact .. i promise that i will try to change myself this month.. i will try to remain gamble free but at the other hand.. i will try to improve as a human being and as a person.. first few months are going to be challanging, particularly january.. when i have to file my tax return.. if i remain gamble free.. one by one problems will be sorted.. thanks vera for your support in december and i am glad that i did not gamble in december..tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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congrats for the good news bettie.. pround granny… not seeing you much in chat these days.. must be busy in x-mas preparations.. nice to know that you are doing well.. take care and enjoy yourselftomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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Dear Larry,
started reading your journal and found this post which is very relevant for me and i think may help some others who have just started their recovery recently.. it shows our determination and committment and how it is different from the attempts which we make and then relapse..
once again thank you for writing in this forum..
regards
sunny
– One Month Anniversary
Hi … My name is Larry and I am a Compulsive Gambler.  My last day to gamble was August 13, 2009.
While I am very pleased that I can make this statement today, I find it hard to believe.  I can not start to name the times that I hopelessly said that I would not gamble for one month, or for one week or even a week-end. I have also tried, and failed, to condition my gambling  until a certain event, like the next full moon, or I would only gamble it I won a hand of Solitaire, or until my next payday.
The problems with those past attempts were that; one –  they were giving me the option to gamble again, so when I slipped I merely resumed gambling earlier then planned, not failed in my goal (although, I did on occasion keep my word not to gamble until my next payday, but, when I often failed at this goal, it cost me even more in the high overdraft and returned check fees); and , two – the time frames I set, even the "one week" or "few days" restrictions, left open too big a gap for outside influences to weaken my reserve.
Now, I only say, and solemnly pledge, that I will not gamble for today. This total commitment not to gamble, even for just that one day, completely removes the "until" time that was to allow myself to gamble again; and, it greatly restricts the time frame left open for all the outside forces to interfere to only 24 hours (this shorter 24 hour window is further reduced by filling it with other actives, and the outside forces are hindered by the barriers I have put in place).  
Far me to be able to begin by Month 2 tomorrow, I have to continue to be gambling free today; to help me accomplish this, I pledge that I will not gamble today.
Thank all of you here for the support and engorgement that I have gained through all your post and your sharing of your means to combat this disease. In return for your help I can only offer these few words of advice, "make and keep this same Daily Pledge, and travel your path One Day At A Time".  Again, thank you.
Larry, aka Paul315

"Day Two is Still a Day Away" – No matter how long in the program, I realize that without help and strength I might have to, but hopefully not, begin a new Day Two from time to time.
— 11/3/2009 11:42:10 AM: post edited by paul315.
 
 
 tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

[sunny123]

nice to know that you are having a nice time with family and you remember this time two years back.. i think that is very important in recovery to always remember the agony and pain of our days of the action as whenever i get an urge.. i remind myself that once again i will be as miserable and finding ways to get money from wherever i can.. you are doing very well and it is an encouragement for ustomorrow will be better than yesterday.

[sunny123]

whatever you say kay… americans have to do it differently than the rest of the world… .. hope you are having a nice day.. weather here is also ok in UK.. for a changetomorrow will be better than yesterday.

[sunny123]

congrats kay for staying away for such a long time. keep going strong and keep encouraging us. sorry to know about your mum..some things we cant change and some we can.. tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

[sunny123]

thanks for the lovely post on my journal bettie.. have a nice weekend.. still trying to find time to go through your journal.. life has become so busy.. i have no time to gamble.. earlier life was so busy with gambling.. had no time to do anything else…tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

[sunny123]

hi k,
nice to meet you in chat last night.. your weekend is already started.. hope you have a nice relaxed one.. with lot of sunshine.. here it is gloomy, wet and dark..tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

[sunny123]

hello bettie,
was nice to see you on chat that day, was looking for you but now i can see that you were so occupied with so much going on. sorry to know about your daughter and the ornament. see, the most things in life which matter more to us are not the ones which are very expensive and money cannot bring that emotional attachment but still we cg’s think that a big win will sort out most of our problems.. i kept on delaying to come here or put barriers in place thinking i will stop once i recover my loss. it would have never helped and ultimately i ended up multiplying my loss several times..
never too late to mend.. hope that you stay strong and keep encouraging us… take caretomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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kathryn just think how well you have done in recent past and how things would have been if you had not stopped.. the repurcussions of our deeds will be there for a long time but would have been much much worse if we had not stopped. hope things get better.. tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

[sunny123]

Hi Kathryn, it was very nice to see on in the chat today. hope you keep aspiring others to stay away by keep going strong.tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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