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dear erin!! i liked your idea of green and red.. read on vera’s journal.. i wish your all walls turn green with time.. all teh best and happy new yeartomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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***** soppy!! welcome to gt!! welcome to this forum where you will find so many similarities with others, where you will find comfort, where you will come to know that you are not alone, where you will find out how to come out of it, where you will learn how to forget the past and look to the future, where you will realize that everything is not lost till you want to try to leave gambling and where you will know that it can be done..
there are people here on various stages of their recovery.. each one of us have different stories and different problems but we are here for the same reason.. i never discuss my gambling problem with non cg any more as nobody will ever understand how can one get addicted to it that too when we end up as loosers every time.
hope you will use all the help and support available here to come out of this addiction and work towards your recovery. tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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that is very good sm.. i can relate to what you are saying.. i infact did not go to work for few days after i lost all that money in gambling.. it may be the first time that i called off- sick.. it was very difficult to motivate myself to start working again as i was also thinking the same that what is the use of earning little bit of money when i am going to blow it again.. it was difficult to even concentrate on my routine work .. and it was hard to think of working extra hours.. but after joining this site.. now i am working harder and not only it is providing the much needed extra money.. but keeps me distracted from all the negative thoughts.. which are always there in my mind.. hope that you keep progressing in recovery.. tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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lots of things going on in mind.. once i start thinking about my kids.. i find it difficult to resist to try again to convince my wife.. i called her twice this morning.. only to end up feeling bad about myself.. her list of accusations are long and she cannot leave the past behind.. it some ways prompt me to give up on recovery and when i was in action. that used to be my excuse, but now atleast at present.. i am not having any urge to gamble.. may be all these tax problems and other things have occupied my mind, so there is no space left for them.
the only thing which gives me happiness is my capability to work hard.. i have excellent relation with all my staff members and they are the only people whom i meet in real life apart from this virtual family. loneliness is one thing, which gradually creeps in, and that was the one reason for my relapse last time.. i have seen that tiredness and boredom also played a big role and may be the satisfaction of making extra money also gave me encouragement to gamble.. i am trying to list my triggers so that i can find things to deal with them.. last night, i finished at midnight, very tired but still not wanted to go to bed straight away.. in my gambling days.. that used to be the time, when i used to start looking at the markets and planning for my bets.. yesterday i started watching movie on my phone and my temptation to look what is happening in the world just vanished..
once my finanical situation gets little better, i will try to start running again.. used to go last year in the morning.. that is also satisfying and relase lot of serotonin in the brain to make me happy.. there are two types of people here on the site these days.. one who are very determined and making all efforts to keep progressing in recovery and then there are few who just want to have some short term support and answers and then go back.. i must say that i was the second one for nearly a month in november,, used to come,, read few posts, never wrote and used to calm down for a moment and then go back there again .. loose everything again. then come back.. read few stories.. go back..
i am glad that i am hooked on to it now.. and may be first time.. i am realizing that recovery is not just stopping gambling.. have a good day.. thanks for reading..tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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good morning hope!!! like you i also keep going through different emotions through out the days and then the turmoil in my family life adds to it.. i always try to teach myself that things will settle down .. but may be due to being a CG, i get very impatient.. and want to rush things.. rather than wait for them.. this is one thing.. which i need to work on.. to have some patience in life.. we have bank holiday here today.. do you get a holiday today down under.. for a change.. it is sunny outside..tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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good morning sm!!! it is second of january my friend and not second of december.. i am sure you dont want to go back to 2nd dec… congrats on getting a raise.. keep working hard and keep going.. i hope new year brings more good news for you.. tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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 was at work on NYE.. so just hugged all members of staff
still at work.. and just found little time to come here
are you a member of any other cg forum?
 tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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hello bettie!! a very happy new year to you.. hope we continue together in our journey in 2012 as well.. tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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thanks caron for writing on my thread.. to see you here gamble free for such long time is very encouraging and motivating.. nice to know that you are making most of your gamble free life.. i hope that i will be there some day..
a very happy new year to you.. tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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happy new year vera.. thanks for holding my hand when i started this journey towards freedom.. i wish you happiness, contentment and good health.. sorry for being little bit irregular these days.. but as you know i am working most of the ***** so not much time to come here.. but whatever time i get.. i try to go through your posts.. thank you so much.. tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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happy new year pumkin…. nice to know that you are doing well.. wish you a happier and healthier gamble free 2012. tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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***** hope!! happy new year to you.. good to see that you are making steady progress.. like you.. i think in the end i should be grateful that in 2011 i came to my senses.. but overall it is the year which brought so many problems in my life.. i want 2012 to be a year which will wipe out all my feeling of guilt and shame by becoming a good human being and a good dad..tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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thanks for writing on my thread jim.. i wish you a very happy new year.. you are playing i a big part in recovery of many fellow cg’s like me and i wish you a healthier and happier 2012tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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happy new year flyorra.. i can relate to what you feel now.. having failed again and again to come out of it but i can only advise you to block access to money in the initial few days.. and force yourself to be occupied somewhere.. the more we think about what we lost.. the more we try to get it back.. it becomes a vicious circle.. unless you start thinking that what is lost is lost.. it is difficult to think ahead.. and it is very painful to accept the fact that it has gone.. this hope never allowed me to stop when i started loosing and i always kept on trying till i lost everything.. we CG can never do it in a controlled way.. so just accept it and though painful.. but try to forgive yourself for the past.. look ahead and things will start getting better if you manage to stay away from gamblingtomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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welcome to GT kridel.. most people have gone through all these feelings and can relate to what you are feeling now.. if you are here for a week, you would have noticed that people have managed to stay away for very long time, so it is achievable.. your target for next christmas is very good but to reach there you need to keep working on your recovery.. most of us have managed to stay away from gambling and then we relapsed.. just because we thought that we are cured, or we know it well, or just a small try, or any other excuse and we landed up from where we started.. for people like me, my every relapse have took me far deeper than from where i started.. so try to be regular here and i wish that you all the best in your recovery and wish you a very happy new year.tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

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