[sunny]

Hi all,

Its with deepest regrets and guilt that i had relapse after staying GF for 127 days. Gambled for excat 2 months and today i’m back to a new journey to start GF.

It is with lots of mental tolls, tireness and distraction of gambling that it affects focus on work, family and personal well being. I believe that gambling is a life time illness for me. I cant cure it but i do need to find ways to stop and to prevent relapse. Something that i will have to accept it, face it and do something about it.

Every period of relapse allow time to move faster then usual when trying to stay GF, sort of happier during gambling moments in certain ways. But however, the same mental tolls , same negative effects will still continue to come back in a same way in the end. I can choose to continue to gamble but it has become too mental tiring and unhealthy that i tell myself to stop this morning and to do what is right.

Good important side is that i had know recently that my wife is expecting our 2nd baby which we been trying for couple of years. I am overwhelmed with happiness and pray that everything will be good. It become even more important for me to be GF!

With this, im determined to work again on staying GF, focusing on work, family and personal health being.

Im worried about relapse, but i believe that i can only take baby steps on each daily day.

Can i do it this time? Can i have a welcome gift to my newborn when he/she is out into the new world that im still on GF and will continue to be?

1st March 2021 @ GF day 1, here i am coming for you!

I will continue to journal and will always welcome any good personal feedback or advice.

I hope we can keep each other motivated in this GF journey and i will be keeping everyone in daily prayers, may god bless and help us all!

Sunny

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यह सुनकर खुशी हुई कि आप 10 दिनों से GF हैं। इसे जारी रखते हुए Steph!

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یہ سن کر خوشی ہوئی کہ آپ 10 دن کے لیے GF ہیں۔ اسے جاری رکھنا اسٹیف!

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Blij om te horen dat je 10 dagen GF bent. Ga zo door Stef!

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Happy to hear that u are GF for 10 days. Keeping it going Steph!

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Felice di sapere che sei fidanzata da 10 giorni. Continua così Steph!

[sunny]

Радий почути, що ти GF протягом 10 днів. Степа, продовжуй!

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Keeping everyone in GT in my prayers for strength and help .

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Hang in there my friend. U can do it again. Stay strong and keep you in prayers

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Keep going G Rec. Hope you are doing well. Keeping you in my prayers.

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@ GF 127 days.

Blessed xmas to all.

Sunny

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Hej G Rec, jeg kan helt mærke, at du har været igennem tilbagefald. Men det er godt og vigtigt, at du kommer sandt om det. Jeg tror, at charles eller nogen havde nævnt, at vores restitutionsrejse vil tage en lang periode med kamp eller endda livstid, da denne fristelse til spilmisbrug vil være i os, det var jeg helt enig om. Derfor er det yderst vigtigt aldrig at lade vores vagter falde, uanset hvor længe vi forbliver GF. Da ethvert øjeblik med væddemål igen vil udløse den dårlige rejse tilbage. Lige nu peger vi måske på ingen steder under rejsen for at prøve at blive GF. Men når vi har boet GF helt, vil vi se fremtiden blive forskel, og at den er så meget bedre! Fortsæt med at udfordre dig selv til at forblive GF, vis det til folk omkring dig eller endda os, at du kan gøre det! Bliv motiveret og stærk kammerat! Solrig

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Hi G Rec, i can totally feel you for going thru the relapse. But it is good and important that you are coming truth about it. I think charles or someone had mentioned that our recovery journey will take a long period of battle or even life time as this gambling addiction temptation will be in us, i totally agreed on that.

Therefore it is exteremly important to never let our guards down inregardless how long we stay GF. As any one moment of bet again will trigger the bad journey back.

Right now, we maybe pointing to no where during journey of trying to stay GF. But once we have stay GF totally, we will see the future to be difference and that its so much better!

Keep challange yourself to stay GF, show it to people around you or even us that you can do it!

Stay motivated and strong buddy!

Sunny

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Hei G Rec, voin täysin tuntea sinut menemässä relapsin läpi. Mutta on hyvä ja tärkeää, että kerrot totuuden siitä. Luulen, että charles tai joku oli maininnut, että toipumismatkamme kestää pitkän taistelun tai jopa elämän, koska tämä uhkapeliriippuvuuden kiusaus on meissä, olen täysin samaa mieltä siitä. Siksi on äärimmäisen tärkeää, ettemme koskaan petä vartijoitamme riippumatta siitä, kuinka kauan pysymme GF: ssä. Kuten mikä tahansa panoshetki uudelleen laukaisee huonon matkan takaisin. Tällä hetkellä ehkä osoitamme minne tahansa matkan aikana yrittäessämme pysyä GF: nä. Mutta kun olemme pysyneet GF: ssä kokonaan, näemme tulevaisuuden olevan erilainen ja että se on paljon parempi! Haasta itsesi pysyäksesi GF: nä, näytä se ympärilläsi oleville ihmisille tai jopa meille, että pystyt siihen! Pysy motivoituneena ja vahvana kaverina! Aurinkoinen

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@ GF 124 days.

Thank you Newshoulder for your kind words. I hope you can continue to work hard to stay off gambling.

Remember for our future, family and many more! 🙂

Lets keep ourself motivated and to stay strong.

Sunny

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