[StevieV]

Well I’m alive!
nHaven’t posted in awhile as I decided I wanted to hit a certain milestone before my next post. I hit it! I no longer owe money to bookies! Huge win for me and just such a stress removed and good feeling.
nI am just over a week away from hitting my 4 month gamble free mark.
nIt’s been a tough journey so far but I am incredibly proud I’ve stuck to it! I’ve finally given myself a chance to see what life can be without gambling, I am not debt free from gambling yet and still have a pretty decent amount to pay back but it’s to personal loans and family no more bookies or toxic pay day crap.
nI’m excited about the future and in the next few weeks will do my best to put aside a little money to buy some things as “rewards” so I don’t forget what I can do with my money when I don’t gamble.
nSo far it’s been surprisingly easy especially considering how bad I was and for how long.
nSports haven’t really started back up but there’s been some stuff and it hasn’t bothered me or anything.
nReally focused on the future and just understanding the behavior.
nHope everyone else is doing well on their journey!

[StevieV]

Great to hear you hit that milestone and are doing well staying safe etc! Stay focused haha play call of duty and march on into that 3 month mark you have set! Good stuff man we are on a similar timeline can’t wait to celebrate more of your milestone your successes as well as mine

[StevieV]

Totally resonate with the gambling/losing as essentially a subconscious form of self destructive behavior to cover other unhappiness in your life. Glad you are back on track and not beating yourself up it’s all part of your journey!
I’ve made the four week mark and can’t wait to join you there young lady! Good stuff 🙂

[StevieV]

Blij om te zien dat je nog steeds sterk op je reis gaat! Relaties zijn moeilijk! Ik ben niet getrouwd maar ben al bijna 10 jaar samen met iemand en zij zegt waarschijnlijk soortgelijke dingen over mij. Als je niet gelukkig bent, ga dan weg of vraag hem om te vertrekken en jij! Het leven is te kort… Als je van de persoon houdt en denkt dat er iets is dat het waard is om te redden of te redden, doe dat dan, maar uiteindelijk, naar mijn mening, als het niet tot geluk leidt, waarom zou je het dan blijven doen? Jammer dat ik dat lange tijd niet met gokken heb bedacht! Houd je hoofd omhoog, voel je trots en blijf sterk! Het geluk wacht op je met open armen 🙂

[StevieV]

Mă bucur să văd că mergeți încă puternic în călătoria voastră! Relațiile sunt dure! Nu sunt căsătorit, dar sunt cu cineva de aproape 10 ani și probabil că spune lucruri similare despre mine. Dacă nu ești fericit atunci pleacă sau roagă-l să plece și fă-te! Viața este prea scurtă … Dacă iubești persoana și crezi că există ceva care merită salvat sau salvat, atunci fă asta, dar în cele din urmă, în opinia mea, dacă nu va duce la fericire, atunci de ce să o faci în continuare? Păcat că nu mi-am dat seama de mult timp cu jocurile de noroc! Țineți capul sus simțiți-vă mândru și rămâneți puternic! Fericirea te așteaptă cu brațele deschise 🙂

[StevieV]

Fico feliz em ver que você ainda está indo bem em sua jornada! Relacionamentos são difíceis! Não sou casado, mas estou com alguém há quase 10 anos e ela provavelmente diz coisas semelhantes sobre mim. Se você não está feliz, então saia ou peça a ele para sair e fazer você! A vida é muito curta … Se você ama a pessoa e acha que há algo que vale a pena salvar ou salvar, faça isso, mas no final das contas, na minha opinião, se não vai te levar à felicidade, por que continuar fazendo isso? É uma pena que não descobri isso com o jogo por muito tempo! Mantenha a cabeça erguida, sinta-se orgulhoso e mantenha-se forte! A felicidade espera por você de braços abertos 🙂

[StevieV]

Glad to see you are still going strong on your journey! Relationships are tough! I’m not married but have been with someone for almost 10 years and she probably says similar things about me. If you aren’t happy then leave or ask him to leave and do you! Life is too short… If you love the person and think there’s something worth salvaging or saving then do that but ultimately in my opinion if it’s not going to lead to happiness then why keep doing it? Shame I didn’t figure that out with gambling for a long time!
Keep your head up feel proud and stay strong! Happiness awaits you with open arms 🙂

[StevieV]

Well I’ve made it to almost a month and I’m going strong… life is pretty hectic and different with the virus situation as my family is away up in the woods at a ski house hiding out to stay safe and I am home alone still working as I am considered “essential” on top of that I still pushing through and working on some side jobs to keep my income up to repay my gambling debts. At my regular job I’ve taken a pay cut down to about 60% of my average pay as I usually work a decent amount of overtime and that has evaporated, it’s causing some stress but I’ll be ok. It has definitely put a dent in my ability to pay things off as quickly as I’d hoped but I’m just focusing on all the positives from not gambling and hanging on to the fact that in a month I should have far less financial stress.
The large majority of my gambling was sports betting and as most sports have been canceled it’s hard to gauge how I am doing with resisting urges etc… I did used to play lottery numbers and scratch offs a pretty decent amount too on a daily basis at times or weekly basis and I haven’t done that at all so it’s not like there’s no gambling options for me to avoid.
My family isn’t sold on it and I can’t blame them after years and years of not doing anything about it it’s going to take time to show them that I am serious about this and doing it.
Look forward to being able to say it’s been a month and even more so to seeing how much life has improved in six months! Haha hell maybe I’ll have even managed to save that deposit for a House I’ve wanted yet pissed away 10 times over!
Onwards and upwards team let’s go!

[StevieV]

Hope you are going strong with your mission and staying safe out there man keep up the good work!

[StevieV]

good to see you are still doing well on your journey Aimz keep up the good work! 

[StevieV]

Yesterday was the two week mark for me and I’m feeling pretty happy about it!
Sports being canceled due to this virus has undoubtedly made this easier but I haven’t gone and gambled elsewhere via scratch tickets or daily lottery numbers.
It’s been nice not stressing or worrying about scores and what games to bet, unfortunately as I’ve stated above there’s still a good few weeks of clearing my pay until I see some of it again but other than that it’s all positive.
Even not taking a small portion that could go to debt to gamble has been refreshing.
It’s undoubtedly had a positive effect on my relationships with people as I am not consumed by gambling or taking time away from things to focus on gambling.
Definitely giving myself a solid insight into what life can be like without it!
Onwards and upwards team let’s hit that month mark!

[StevieV]

good to see you are staying the course man keep on pushing forward to that gamble free goal 

[StevieV]

Still going strong 11 days in…
things are a bit crazy with the whole coronavirus thing going on so I’ve pretty much been distracted with that.
Another Friday another round of clearing out my entire check to cover debt. Probably another 3 or 4 weeks of that left before I see any of my money so I’ll be trying to remember how much I hate it and use it as a future deterant.
It’s a tough road ahead but one that will lead to far better things just have to keep on pushing on.

[StevieV]

I am relatively new on here, about 9 days into my gamble free journey.
I read your initial post and through some of the following ones and just wanted to say keep your head up and keep on going.
You are about 4-5 years younger than myself and I think it’s fantastic you are trying to do something about it before it just gets worse and worse… unfortunately that’s the reality of it and it seems you are understanding that.
It’s amazing how we are all different yet with this beast the story’s are almost identical and without strength and courage the story’s will never change.
Try not to dwell on the money while trying to learn to hang onto the good feelings you described in your last post.
We will get there stay strong!

[StevieV]

The weekend is pretty much over and I’m happy to say it’s a week gamble free!
Things have been a bit crazy at Work with the whole virus thing and then also trying to get some stuff prepared for myself.
The no sports being on the last 2-3 day has probably been very beneficial In terms of not being a temptation… I’m surprised I haven’t had any real urges it’s been nice.
Proudly heading into week 2!

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