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I wanted to post here to say that I am still gambling free been a month. Wanted to let everyone know that I won’t be here for groups today. Going to fair called The Big E. Will be spending all day there. So I will see everyone tomorrow (Friday)

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Well, made it home from the cape without stopping at casino. Funny thing though. I never had a thought about gambling, but I knew I had to try to call my sponsor as I promised. So I called her and we talked for a bit. I guess the phone does not weigh 200 pounds…lol

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Thanks maverick. You stay strong too

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better late than never they always say. I did get to my destination without stopping at casino. made the call like i was planning on. still gambling free. well on my way home tomorrow morning. I will be too early to make a call but i will make sure i am in a good frame of mind when i am driving past the area near the casino.

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I am glad i made it this far but my depression is still kicking my butt. Started new med and i know they take a while before i start to feel the effects of it. Just so tired of crying for no reason or just because i watch a sad show. Really been struggling at work but have no choice but to work. If i take off any more time , i am afraid I will lose my job. Was out last year for a while and also out another four days not too long ago. Well thanks for letting me vent.

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Day 8 Still have not gambled. It has been very hard as i have been dealing with some psych issues, but i feel better for not having gambled.

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So still no gambling since last Thursday. Been talking with gambling counselor and had group yesterday. They both helped me. I did not feel like doing anything but my desire to not gamble was stronger so went to those activities. I am more resolved than ever to not gamble again just for today. Not sure if I be at groups today but I will not gamble.

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really having bad urges to gamble but not gonna give in to them. Posting here is one way I am dealing with them. I don’t want to spend another penny on gambling. So many thought going thru my head right now. I almost feel as bad as I did when I first stopped gambling at the casino’s in 2005. So want to be normal again if that is even possible.

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It is normal for the addiction (the Devil as I call it) to mess with you. It wants you to believe you can gamble normally like others can. But we as c.g. Cannot ever gamble normally again just for today. Posting here is a good way to help combat that feeling. I know it helps me.

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Still no gambling but really struggling wanting to escape thru gambling. This darn depression is messing with me. Oh well. Won’t gamble just for today

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Still no gambling but really struggling wanting to escape thru gambling. This darn depression is messing with me. Oh well. Won’t gamble just for today

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So no gambling yet and it is day two Works helps with not gambling. Just posting to remind myself not to gamble

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I have decided to come clean with everyone who reads my journal. My official last date of gambling was Thursday night. I went on fb slots and spent some money to play them this week. So I am starting over officially as of today. I will not gamble for rest of weekend just for one day at a time. Will write more about when i have more time to and feel i can handle it emotionally. thanks for listening and sorry for not telling the truth

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Just read your journal and story. Glad you have started a journal. It will help you. Banning yourself is one of the best tools us casino gamblers have. You sound like you are really gonna make it and not gamble again just for one day at a time. Hopefully i will see you again next week in the support groups. They are very beneficial to helping anyone stop gambling.

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1. Work on health. Taking all meds even bp meds
2. Remember to be positive and see positive even if it is a positive situation.
3. Start journal and keep it active.

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