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The monkey wrench i talked about velvet is my brother. He is 6 years older than me and lives in an alzhiemer unit due to his mental status. It breaks my heart to see him that way. I will finally accept the changes in him and move on, but until i do that i get so mad and angry bout whole situation that i curse my higher power. He recently had to go to another psych ward due to his illness. So that is the monkey wrench. My date still 6/17.

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Definitely hook up in the chat rooms Libbie. The chat rooms here have helped me immensely. I know from experience that g.a. works. It is nice to be around people that been where you are at. No matter what the other people gambled on, the result was still the same. Ga really does work for me.

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Well, my gambling program is getting better. Still have date of 6/17. I have been told i can post all my problems here not just gambling problems. My depression has finally cost me my job of 22 years. The only thing i truly believed i was good at is gone. And i was not good at it. Don’t know what else to say. Might as well just give up.

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Ok So i am Starting my recovery process again. Have not gambled since 6/17. Been working with my gambling counselor on other ways to fill my time when life’s problems get me down.

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Been really struggling with gambling and life issues. Have not went to an actual casino but have changed my date 5/28/13.In my mind i know that is not a good way to escape, but my disease took over my mind and said it was ok. I still very much want to escape but trying other avenues than gambling. I know it is not the way to solve life’s issues, but right now it is all i can do.

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Thanks for the kind words you two i really appreciate them.  i am currently in the process of having myself banned from the casino I almost went to.  I have not had any further gambling on my phone since then.  I am slowly learning to use the tools, g.a. and this site has taught me.  I have been working on some amends that need to be made.  Hopefully they will help the people i have hurt.  So many poeple knew i had a problem before I ever thought i did.  I remember when my first therapist kept asking me if i had thought about going to get help for my gambling, but i always said i dont have a problem.  I am ok.  Even though  it caused to me wanting to end my life, i still did not think i had a problem.  I finally admitted i had a problem four months after she first started mentioning g.a. to me.  It was the best decision i have made since my mom passsed away,which started my path of destruction with gambling.  I still have many struggles today, but i am slowly making my life better.  I will definitely continue to post here Sherry.  I just do not get on my puter as much as i would like to. 

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Things are going well with me.  My new gambling counselor is actually working out.  She is helping more than my old one did.  We are working on me as well as my gambling recovery.  This has been hard for me, but it is something that must be done.  haven’t gambed since january 15 of this year.   Can’t say that the urges are gone but i dont give in to them. 

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It has been a long time since i been here on site.  I have a new date of 1/5/13.   Have not gone to casino but have played slots on phone and computer.  Not for money but did buy a slot machine to play on phone.   Did it to escape my troubles and the worries.   Beginning to think i was meant to always gamble, just not for money.

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Life sure is funny. I posted earlier about my gambling counselor being fired. Several people including one person on this site told me to concentrate on my recovery and stop worrying about gambling counselor. I have since taken steps to do that. Instead of quitting gambling

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I have finally decided to stay with present treatment plan for now. I am truly blessed to have found this site and the wonderful people on it. I am starting over again as my last bet was 7/23.

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I have had a much better week this. The woman who replaced my previous counselor isn’t as bad as I thought. I actually like her. I have talked with my previous counselor and he is doing good with change. Nothing seems to bother him long. Wish I could be like himhimjhim

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