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Harry it appear that the free blocker site is not accessible in USA
Thanks for trying anyway And bet filter is now 69.99
Guess I will have to figure out another system. Maybe
Way is to put laptop away and access g.t. site at library

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We’ll Harry. It

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So I talked with my gambling counselor today and she is going help me on Wednesday after group to install the free bet filter. Doing it with her will help me feel better and know that I wont have the password. She is going put the information in my file in case something happens to her. I also want to thank you for the talk Charles in group today. It helped a lot. I have a renewed passion for my recovery.

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I have just come from my group therapy. Was very intense for me. We watched a movie called “big steve” Was about a person in throes of his compulsive gambling and how he found GA. What really hit me about the movie was when he tried to commit suicide in the end. My gambling brought me to that point and i still gambled. Reminded me of how sick a compulsive gambler i was. Just thinking bout the past now. (sigh)

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This is my new date. I told my gambling counselor and my sponsor about my gambling. My sponsor said “why didn’t you call me before gambling.” and my counselor helped me figure out strategies to help prevent this from happening over and over again. I have more resolve than ever to stay gambling free this time. I have thought at times that fake slots cannot hurt me. But it has. By escaping that way I am only delaying the inevitable. I must deal with my reality and the feelings that come with it. Otherwise i will eventually go back to gambling at real casino. I have put some new recovery practices in place. Gonna call my sponsor at least 4 times a week. I will start journaling again and i am putting a gratitude list on my computer. Well will write more later gotta get ready to go to my ga meeting. Thanks for the talk Janey.

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Just wanted to let the people who know me that my brother is finally at peace. He passed away on october 10. I finally have some peace in my life that I have not had for a very long time. My new date is today. So if you don’t see me here much it is because i am putting laptop away for a bit as i cannot afford gambling blocks.

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Great poem!!!!!

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Great poem!!!!!

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I think i fixed it Can you let me know if it is right plz? thanks in advance Harry

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Sorry we got disconnected harry I hit wrong button. The talk was great and i feel better. Gonna try and look forward not back. Talk with ya soon i hope.

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Thank for the help. I hope it can find the right times. Guess i am mathematically challenge. No more talk of this i promise. again thank you.

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I guess i wont be in any of the groups anymore since i have too much trouble figuring out what times they run. I understand why you stopping people from joining after fifteen minutes. I guess i wont be in them anymore because of my confusion. But i will still keep postings on forum.

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So this new looking web page is gonna take some time getting used to. I was confused before so now i am really confused. Well unfortunately i have given into my urges again. Really need to accept that i need to get rid of puter or put blocker on it. I have no excuse now. my sister has her own laptop and that was my last excuse i was using. I am still fearful of change. Yet it rules me. Hopefully now that site it back up and running, i can take my own advice and start posting when i get the urge. That worked before. Not sure if i like the new page but that is just me being me with change (lol). I hope to post here soon again.

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Still having urges but dealing with them. This posting really helps. Went to two g.a. meetings yesterday. kept me busy and they was good. Still have a lot of work ahead of me. Even little changes give me anxiety. Wish i knew why. Really trying to work thru it without medication but getting really frustrated. I so want to keep my date but part of me thinks i wont. Well i will post again soon.

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Really Really feel like gambling now. So want to escape reality. Instead of gambling i am writing on here.

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