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Earlier last week my gambling counselor ask me to speak at training seminar on tuesday. I’ m happy to say it went well. It really boosted my confidence. I have also been more positive than I have ever been since joining g.a. This week is usually tough for me as it contains the date my brother passed in 1977. But on that day it did not dwell just thought about it for a hour or two and did not let it ruin my week. This is the first this has ever happened. That is a huge accomplishment for me. Never thought i would ever say those words. I had so many feeling about his death that i had to get thru. I wont go into them, but just knowing I am thru them is truly a miracle (never thought i would use this word). Well just wanted to let you all know that i am doing alot better and hopefully I will keep this momentum up.

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I have just had an interesting talk in the group i just attended. It made me realized i am not doing enuf for my recovery. I keep saying i need to do this and that. But i rarely do. So i am starting by posting in here. I been working on my depression partly due to my gambling. It has been hard. whenever gets hard i want to escape to a safe place so i dont have to deal with ti. (inpatient place). But this time i am working on it with gambling counselor, psychiatrist and friends at g.a. Sometimes i feel like i was destined to be miserable forever. Like my heart was shattered in a million pieces and it can never be put back together again. other days i feel like it can be done. Today is a day of feeling like i can. So i am gonna call my sponsor later today and hopefully do some journaling and maybe make a call to my very best friend in g.a. He was the first one i met and we still see each other regularly at meetings. Been lazy at calling him too.l
Well posting here is a start. i usually end every group i attend with i will post in my journal and this time i did

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i thought it let you back in if you was already there but i guess not. will talk with ya soon. thanks for the chat we did have

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richard it is not letting me back in sorry maybe you can do something about that?

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Somehow the facilitators name was not up there and no one was answering did i do something wrong or was it site? plz let me know so i can correct if it needs to be corrected on my end

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Sorry this is posted so late Harry. Everything went well with the speech that I gave. I was very very nervous though. I talked about my whole story and how low my gambling addiction brought me too. Everyone said I did fine but you know me. I thought I did a terrible job. (that is one of my many character defects I am working on…lol)

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I have been to two meeting this week and i have a more positive outlook on my recovery. I am going to start writing in my journal everyday again. I will also start using recovery tools that were told to me a long time ago from the first person i met in g.a. He has a very good recovery and along time since he gambled. (but as he says all he has is today). I have since blocked all the gambling games on facebook. My thought is that maybe if i don’t see them i wont be tempted. I am more determined than ever to stay gambling free. I am also trying a suggestion to boost my opinion of myself. I am buying a mirror and while looking in it, i will say five times “I am a good person” and then say I do deserve the good things. I starting to see a therapist again. Me and my psychiatrist think i need too. And last but not least i will try to attend more of the groups here. They really help me. And my last date is March 2,2014. That is gonna be my last new date!

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I think i finally finshed it. And i think it is working have not been able to access any slot playing

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Trying to download bet filter and having trouble. still can access facebook slots ( not playing
) just checking that it works. n I keep trying don’t know what I did wrong

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Life in a northern town by The dream academy. the devil went down to georgia the charlie daniels band, Home by Phillip Phillips, Thinking of you by Christian Kane, Another day in paradise by Phill Collins, Theme from Caddy Shack Movie, Love Shack by B-52’s, Rhianon by Fleetwood Mac, Cosmik Debris from Frank Zappa, Some Steely Dan, Chicago and of course, MArgaritaville by Jimmy Buffet. That it is.

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Well I find I need to make a sign when I sit at library computer. So making one to post when I am there. Been escaping again. I had something happen to me the other day, it really upset. My bro that just passed had a photo album with pictures of the car from 1977 car accident that killed my other bro. Never wanted to see them and unfortunately I opened the wrong end of the book. I know see why my mother had to identify him by his wallet. So I am really gonna work hard on staying clean from gambling because of it. Thanks for letting me vent

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Happy New Year to you Vera and Happy New Year to everyone here at gamblingtherapy.org

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We’ll finally made a step in the right direction.
Gave my laptop to gambling counselor for a while
I Can access site on phone and at library. For
now this is the only option for me. Hope everyone
has a good 2014. Peace to all.

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i was using foxfire and internet explorers and neither let me in. had same message. i am thinking about locking up my puter with gambling counselor in their safe at the office. Since cannot afford others or find one free. thanks for trying anyways.

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Made a step tonite in my facebook gambling problem permanently deleted the email account associated with other facebook. Hopefully that will stop me from accessing that fb account

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