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I have alot things going thru my mind these days. Been thinking of my life growing up as a kid. Wishing i could go back to that time and stay there forever. Never imagined i would end up a c.g. Even knowing that addiction runs in my family. I been really focusing on all the things that my gambling and co-dependency has affected. Besides hurting my family, it affected my relationship with my best forever friend online. We were never separated when on line then my gambling, co-dependency and suicide attempt ruined it. We still email each other and are facebook friends but it will never be the same and i still miss her to this day. Just for today i will try and not gamble on the fake slots. I will work on being more positive today as well. Lately i feel like everytime i share I burden people. I think saying i am good is the way to go even if it is a lie. Charles sorry i did not share this in group but like i said feel like i burden everyone.

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Sorry i left so suddenly. time ran out at library. Sorry if my talk was too serious. Hope everyone has a great weekend will try and post later today.

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You are definitely right butchugly. I am not gonna make no excuses. What i have been doing is not good for my recovery. Will start to write in my journal more when i feel like playing the slots. Here and my personal journal. I cannot let my emotions take over me. That is when i get the urge.

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Things went ok yesterday. I do have a game i play. IT is called ******* ****** ****. I love it. Hopefully i see ya later this week.

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Well trying to post more. Been thinking about some of the suggestions i have been making to some of the people in the groups. I think i should listen to myself when i make comments like that, i should use a few of them myself. Still struggling but more conscious of my actions. I do not go on laptop at home as much, that has helped. I will hopefully make it to some groups this week.

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Sorry i did not see this before now. I have a better understanding now, sorry for any misinterpretation. I really am glad to see you making progress maybe see you this week.

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You are making progress in your recovery. But sometimes you change the subject when something is mentioned that you don’t like. I ,too, did the same thing when i first stopped gambling. I did not want to do certain things. For example, i had two sets of paperwork banning myself from the casinos. they were all ready send but i could not send them. I finally had to say it must be done. You may not like what i said but you are still making progress

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You are making progress in your recovery. But sometimes you change the subject when something is mentioned that you don’t like. I ,too, did the same thing when i first stopped gambling. I did not want to do certain things. For example, i had two sets of paperwork banning myself from the casinos. they were all ready send but i could not send them. I finally had to say it must be done. You may not like what i said but you are still making progress

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I am still struggling with my recovery. Been really tough lately. I still go to one meeting a week and see a gambling counselor and go to a group at gambling help center. They do help me but cannot seem to use the fake slots to escape from life. That is why i started at real casino before 2005 when i admitted i was a compulsive gambler. I am looking for other things to go but hard to do without a car. Well just a little update on my recovery all comments welcome

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yup was gonna do that today.

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Charles someone found my purse and called me. Everything was there

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Your welcome charles sorry it was late.

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Thank you for your input.

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I promised charles i would post this a while back and cannot remember where he told me to post it. So i decided to post it here. It is more of a topic posting than about my personal recovery. I was talking in a group that was facilitated by charles about the usa’s gamblers anonymous definition of gambling. He thought it would be a good idea to post it here and get opinions about it. So here it is.
Gambling for the compulsive gambler is defined as follows: Any betting or wagering, for self or others, whether for money or not, no matter how slight or insignificant, where the outcome is uncertain or depends on chance or “skill” constitutes gambling.

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Even though i missed alot of the groups on here i did manage to get to a g.a. meeting. My usual thursday morning one. It helped me out. Still having trouble with funk but have appt with doc on monday. Just worked out that way. I hope to make more groups next week. Life sure is funny that way.

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