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***** Owen. Welcome to GT!
Well done for posting your story. Well done for reaching deep down, realising what’s going on ain’t normal and that you want a better life. I know that at GA you will find a bunch of folks who have walked in your shoes and really will wish you every success in recovery.
I hear that you don’t wish to be honest with those close to you. I won’t tell you what to do but I will share what I’ve learned. My addiction wants to remain secret. My addiction thrives in secrecy and dishonesty. The more I am open and honest with ppl around me, the more it hurts my addiction, not me. I am happier, healthier and thriving in recovery now that I have stopped hiding and *****. Noone judges me. They have concern for my welfare but they do not judge. They help me. Gosh, I wish I could put this in words better. I just know that since I’ve been honest with ppl that I cannot gamble, I am happier.
Take care Owen. Wishing you all the best in your recovery.
Sherrie
xoxoxo

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1. Walking up a massif hill with my backpack that prolly weighs about 10kg and not getting too out of **** and sweaty.
2. Eating a salad for lunch. Not fat free cos I had Chicken Tikka Strips and Coleslaw on it but it had to be full of vitamins with all them salad greens and peppers and cabbage and carrots and stuff. It was the most colourful food I’ve eaten in months.  
3. Texting with my new girlfriend from GA. She seems to have a great attitude. I am trying to be relaxed about this new relationship as you do see lot’s come and go in GA but I wish her every success in her journey.
4. Pizza for tea. Fully loaded with Pepperoni! (two healthy meals in one day would be a step too far lol)
5. I spoke my mind. I wasn’t happy with something at work so I vocalised it. I think it’s a positive that I didn’t just push it down and hide it. It’s not a sin to be unhappy and it does happen.
6. Driving my car. I really appreciate having some wheels and the freedom that brings me. 
7. Skipping. I lost ***** but I skipped way more than last time before I got out of **** and my recovery time after exercise is improving. 
8. Milk Chocolate Moo Cow Biscuits. Who knew they existed?! Well tasty. 
9.  Getting a t-shirt and a baseball cap from the charity for whom I’ll be raising money next month. Wow, it’s getting very real now. Need to work on my exercise some more.
10. Looking fwd to tommorow night. Me and my team are going out for a curry after work and work is paying for it because we are super and deserve it! The whole team is proper giddy. (we’re easy pleased)

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I’m sorry for hogging the chat Bettie. I feel like I missed an opportunity to chat with you now. I hardly ever get to catch you in chat.
Take care hun and sorry again.
Sherrie
xoxoxo

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I hope you have a wonderful holiday Kathryn . Can’t wait to hear about it when you get back.
Sherrie
xoxoxo

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 Good to hear from you Bettie & Jules xxx Have fun!

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Hello Bettie. I saw ur post on Laura’s journal about wanting to work on the 12 steps. I found some worksheets on a website. Loads of questions and recovery exercises you can explore. It’s at www.12step.org (look in the tools section).

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(((Bettie))). I’m really sorry for Jen, her BF, you and all your family. Just such sad news. x

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I think you’re more wonderful. I’m so pleased that your still posting and well done for getting back to GA. I hope you feel better soon Bettie. xoxoxox

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My dear Carole. I read a story this evening and watched a video about a near death experience that a young lad called Ben Breedlove (18) had when he suffered heart failure. He had a vision (after death) that he was in a room and looked in a mirror and when he looked in the mirror he saw himself and was happy with all that he was and all he had achieved in his short life. It has provoked thoughts/feelings and emotions in me because I’m not sure I could look in that mirror and say the same. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to express what is in my head tonight Carole. I appreciate it. *****
One day at a time, at a pace i can manage, i haven’t gambled.  

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Happy New Year.

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Bettie, ur better than being someones dirty little secret hun. Well done for making the right decision for you. I hope, in time, you find someone deserving of you. ((((Hugs)))) xxx
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