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Day 3 and the withdrawal hit me hard. My mind kept drifting back to how I had always managed to win back half my losses before it all collapses again. So what if I could do it again? I could win back at least 5k and bid my time for the next sure-win bets to come. There is so much I can do with 5k!

But just as I was about to go looking, it dawned upon me that each recovery was also followed by a greater fall. I could be down 20k by this time tmr and that would have broken me.

Continue with the recovery Semaj, and take it one day at a time. One day at a time. Hang in there.

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Hi J, I’ve just been over at your Journal and wow… you have really been dragged thru hell and I don’t think I would be able to go thru what u have experienced. Your experience has really given me some perspective, and I really hope u hang in there. Soldier on brother in uniform, and hopefully we will get thru this together.

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Thanks for your encouragement Laura. I absolutely agree and it’s just so scary how I didn’t see the value of the money I was throwing away. I would put 2k in a single bet without batting an eyelid, when I would have had put in so much thought if I want to purchase something of the same value. Anyway I’ve been over reading your Journal and I could feel your struggle with gambling as well. It hasn’t been an easy journey for u, and I hope you manage to get thru eventually as well. Hang in there Laura!

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Thanks for your words of encouragement Geordi. I’ve gone through today without gambling, but my mind still drifts back to the 10k frequetly. Hopefully it will get better with time. I’m spent most of today reflecting and trying to find the silver lining. Hopefully I can use this experience to change myself for the better.

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Hi P, I’m glad to hear about your success. I’m only at Day1, but i hope I have the strength to achieve the same success u did.

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Hi Geordie, tks for taking the time to give advice before rushing off. That’s a pretty apt analogy you gave, and i think it makes a lot of sense. In a way i suppose I’m ‘grieving’ over the loss now. This reminds me of about 18 years ago when i first started betting on football. I was still a student then and lost about 2k which was meant for my studies, and this was a large sum for a student back in 1999/2000. After the loss, i never gambled, not even for fun when i’m with friends. Time healed that wound, but I guess it also made me forget how painful that loss was. I hope I will have the stength and determination to see through this period of ‘mourning’ and give up this destructive habit for life now..

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