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Absolutely greatness I am focusing more and more in my life. Self worth rediscovery and its great feelings I have embrace. When out today bought two new tyres align and chamber the vehicle all paid for in cash. I feel great not owing anyone making payments and not worrying abt how much money I have to spend.
Saving money in my savings accounts untouched.
Its being so long since I could redeem myself!!!! Wow I am feeling great about life. So thankful. I am just 4 days away from the hundred and I am going to be free from this moment onwards.
Greatness I am feeling enjoying my now moments embracing it with all of me emburse my thoughts and awareness into this now…..
Focus on positive words that builds you up
I am thankful for a perfectly healthy mind body and soul.
Blessings to all.
Anyone who is new here and reading this journal I urge you whole heartedly that you are going to STOP and rewire your mind to think and focus on freedom and healthy living from this moment now.
You know you deserve a better life and you are going to attain just that.
Be thankful that you are here to make that big difference in your life

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I am feeling very awesome about my life signed up for a weekend retreat for divorce men and women. Looking forward for that experience. I am in the bank clearing up security deposit and fixed account sorting out the credit card and making payment towards the loan.
Being free is such a joy and to be healthy thinking positive words and focusing on the the goodness of everything that surrounds me.
Being thankful
Staying positive always
Blessings

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It’s a roller-coaster ride at the moment with the divorce being finalised and emotions are shattered now just picking up the pieces and renewing this mindset to begin a new chapter of life.
Yes it’s has been a whirlwind of ups and downs bitter sweet moments now its been 94 days wow 6 more days until the 100th. Amazing journey thus far thankful for all those who supported me during this ordeal and as we move on to another moment to capture the positive power and embrace it fully. Living the best life now
Yes I am free
I am happy and going to be positive always
Thankful for a wonderful healthy mind body and soul
Gracious and humble
Gentle and meek
Give thanks
Give and feel the power of positivity flow through you
I am currently assisting a third cousin of the family away from an abusive and destructive relationship.
Police are looking into it.
She and her twins kept at my mom’s home and being well taken care of.
Goodness of my mom heart.
Thankful

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92 days free from that habit. The only person owed at the moment is the bank. Primarily focusing only on positive words and thoughts.
Keeping myself alive with self recovery and healing
Living my best life now.
I am thankful for a very great health and perfectly good body mind and soul

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In 2015 when I was first been introduced to roulette electronic cociane.
Life on the fast lane. I am positive and will be at the beach today yeaaa.
refresh

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Good day Jane 

I have been in situations where I feel I need to fulfill everything into one day and knowing full well it takes time to do things even if it is small. At the moment I am dealing with separation of my son and me not being able to see him growing up as a father to a son because he will be moving to South Africa with his mom. Who at the moment is telling everyone even my friends and family that I am gambling all money and owing a lot of people monies. 

I am so proud of what I am now being free and getting things done little by little. I feel motivated I am going out and meeting people and forming new friendship. 

Tomorrow I going to the beach with a most wonderful person who stood by me through my ordeal of divorce. She really supported me and encouraged me to be grounded. 

I am thankful and I know I said all that to say you are going to have a positive mindset and you will accomplished all that you need to in time. No need to rush everything you are going to get it done. 

Take care and stay strong. 

Ps I also watch a lot of late night TV but I watch good comedies. At the moment I am watching “Better Things” pretty interesting.

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Today I am feeling great about life each moment I celebrate as I look forward for a positive filled day. I am truly grateful for having a renew mindset and focusing on self healing onwards for my self worth.
Be blessed all
Peace and love

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You are mindful of all off these thoughts that puts you in that state where hope is gone. 

Keep up the constant process of recovery and self healing you are going to be stronger each day. Allow positive thoughts to empower your as you feel the greatest of good health. 

Embrace the good feeling and emotions you are human after all. 

But only allow positive energy to flow through you

Peace love and blessings 

I wish you well

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I am alive and aware of the mind thoughts now I am single just came off an 9 years of marriage I am going to restart rebuild this scatter heart.
Gambling has really put people lives in a state of misery now I 87 days free from I intend to stay on course and keep my headstrong and only allow positive affirmations into my life from this moment on.
I am enjoying the time being spent with my son now I see he is sad about not being able to be with me and to share his time. In the sonic movie the topic of leaving and going to another place was highlighted during the duration of the movie I felt sad and I knew my son understands what that meant.
I am thankful for all that I have given and i am proud to say yes like in every relationship there are highs and lows I am focus on the positives.
Being there to always take care of all their needs. Paid all the bills provide comfort and what every family needs.
Despite having to borrow money from close friends and family I got by.
I am gonna clear up one debt which is $1300 owed to my cousin over 2 years now… I am paying it off today.
I am thankful
I am positive and in very good health most important.
Stay blessed every one

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Today is my son school first walkaton. The walk will consist of students parents and teachers participation for let’s there be peace. I am spending all of the time I get with my son knowing fully well in a couple of days he would be leaving for South Africa.
Yes I am free if my wife truly love or believe that through thick or thin we’d work it out for the better this emotional trauma would be delete from our lives.
Everything happens for a reason.
Who knows what the future holds for I am living in my now moments.
I am lying awake just thinking about everything that occur to me over the past 6 months and I am on the pathway to recovery and self healing being 86 days free.
I am truly thankful
Peace within my soul
Renew mind and rewiring of it each moment I am alive.
Be positive about your health and enjoy life to the fullest its all you got.
Give and keep on giving this is one of the kindness act humans have for each other.

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I got a loan at the bank today to purchase a vehicle. I am thankful the credit rating is still good. That was the decision I made to stop gambling and to pay off an exiting loan last Yr. Dec.
So I took my son and x wife now fren as she put it for the sake of our son. To the movies to finally watch his favourite character SONIC THE HEDGEHOG.
I am so happy I am able to spend money to see his beautiful smile.
I am so happy I made his evening special he was in awe.
Thankful I am going to be positive always.
Self recovery
Self healing as I move forward to be free always
I am thankful for a very good health

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I skiped yesterday journal because of the divorce finalisation. I wrote my thoughts about it on my emotional journal. Anyways I am 85 days free. Thinking positive. Being focus driven. Yes its a hurdle I jumped over. Now to bear with the consequences of that habit.
I grew up with a dad even though he was physically there I felt a sense of security and being taking care of with food clothing and shelter. Emotionally disconnected. I am thankful I know some who grew up without dad’s and they are emotionally messed up. I am going to make every effort to keep in contact with my son. Support him emotionally and provide him with a financial security when he turns 18. I love my son and will always forever be in my heart.
Despite this hurdle of divorce I am truly grateful for all those who give me encouragement and support special mention to a very wonderful person Ayana, God sent. Esther Matthew Romain and a new person I met Ms. Vintra. Thank you all for all the positive words for me to move forward.

Traveling to home after the court yesterday there where two ladies who were speaking so highly about gambling and how when they win they have enough to get by. No talk about losses.
I just shake my head in amazing to hear how people view gambling its amazing not knowing how deep that trap is. Was caught it for 5 yrs now I am rebuilding back my life renewed mind.
Be blessed everyone
I am thankful
Steev special shout out to you man.

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Keep doing what you are doing. Stay positive always. Care to share what methods you are using to be free. 

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I am meeting a lawyer today to seek legal counsel concerning this divorce. the feeling of emotional distress came over and I am mindful of the decisions being made from this day on wards.
I had a heart to heart chat with my son on his way to school and I ask him how he felt about leaving daddy to go to South Africa with his mom. He say he was sad that i am not there.
I told him I love him and I am always here for him I am going stay close to him through video chats and by next year I will visit him for the xmas. I saw the sadness in his eyes and as I told him this I reassure him that he is always welcome to stay with me and I have a inheritance for him when he is older.
this is emotional draining
I am going stay positive
I am going to renew my mind
i am going to stay the course of self recovery and healing
I am going love myself
I am going know more about who I am and purpose in life from this moment on
I am going to make a difference in someone life
Most of all I am very thankful for a perfectly good health.

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