[Seanraj4731]

Hello brother
I am happy to meet you. I am Sean. I would encourage you to stay on this road to recovery you made your first bold step in ths right direction being on this website on this platform to help not only yourself but others to recovery. I am on my third day free frm gambling. I lost my family becuz of it.my wife recently broke it off with me. Anyways enof with my self pity i say this to point out everyone is here for one goal and that is to be free from it all. Be normal again as you say. Yes i was real normal back before i made that first bet. I was active doing courses studying doing my degree saving money investing in money market growth and income funds i had it going. Got married have a son he is 7 nw and things was going good. Then it all came crashing when i made that first bet won that first bet the thrill of winning. Wow i felt good at that time. Now we move forward onward to win this battle to take back control over the mess we made we shall stand stromg and be grateful to those who stood with us in the fight. Thank you brother for staying strong. Be positive. Look forward to your progress.

[Seanraj4731]

Everyone situation is unqiue and different yet with the same one result: losses. We have to face the harsh reality as i am now i know i cannot get back all the money i lost in all those roulette machines i played on for the past five years losing well over 400k i saying tht with easy but brother it pains me to know i lost the biggest asset of my life my son. My wife broke up with me becuz of this gambling lifestyle i had and took full custody of my son. I am staying strong for myself and know one day he will come bk to me. Despite what i did to them i stole told many lies abt the addiction. I still paid the bills and put food on the table but the debts mounted more and more. Thankfully i am alive after i crashed my vehicle and the insurance paid me $26k i am a new man on day 3 without gambling. I vow from this moment to clear up those debts and make a fresh start. Road to recovery starts now brother. Stay positive we can do this together by uplifting words. I am looking forward. Moving my mind away from those devices i am free i am going enjoy life more and more now. It is my time to help others and give back. Continue to stay on the forum. To be truthful i was on and off this website since last year to now and friday 06 dec 2019 i decided to explore it and i discovered alot now. Now i got a platform to help others in this addiction and to give words to encourage to fight the goodfight in the battlefield of our minds o truly set free of ourselves from the chains of mental slavery. I applaud u brother for making the first step on the road to recovery. Keep on it. Keep focus. Thank you.

[Seanraj4731]

Hello ryan. I read your journal i feel that hurt and pain in those words. Now you focus on healing and recovery being here and getting the emotional and practical support we need to move on. I am here for you on this forum to let you know life moves on after a lose and as the other members here have reply to you see it as failed business and a student loan, see it as a tool to move you away from that negative activity and to put your mind in a place where people like yourself are struggling daily, with to help them with bigger problem than yourself. Have that desire to rebuild and move on my brother. Stay strong. Be strong. Be a role model. And rise above this.

[Seanraj4731]

Hello Sherrie I am Shawn from Trinidad We briefly met online chat. I am here for your company. you are amazing. please believe people do care about you. the following is lyrics from a song written by Seether Rise above this

Take the light, and darken everything around me
Call the clowns, and listen closely, I’m lost without you
Call your name everyday, when I feel so helpless
I’ve fallen down, but I’ll rise above this
Hate your mind, regrets are better left unspoken
For all we know this void will grow
And everything’s in vain, distressing you, don’t leave me open
Feels so right but I’ll end this all before it gets me
Call your name everyday, when I feel so helpless
I’ve fallen down,but I’ll rise above this
Call your name everyday when I seem so helpless
I’ve fallen down, but I’ll rise above this
I’ll mend myself before it gets me

[Seanraj4731]

Thank you brother Craig I do appreciate your share it feels good to pass that machine that clawed your life away now. i rise above it. and I am Very thankful. despite my heavy losses am gonna stand strong. Thanks for your comments. Keep strong my brother

[Seanraj4731]

hello Strambolinski , I feel your pain brother. I am also in a dark place you are in the right place to get help please stay and seek counsel there are people here willing to help you man all is not lost. you are here and reaching out thats the biggest step you have taken You are strong man. Congrats on making that giant step to admit you have that problem. all may seems lost at this time and please reassure yourself each moment is gonna be alright. you are making a different now that you have opened up in being honest and not afraaid to share how you feel. Stay positive my brother

[Seanraj4731]

I am awake just had an afternoon nap and would you believe what was revealed to me or what the subconscious indicated that i was by the roulette machine right next door to where i live and was gambling. In the dream there were numbers in black 6, 26, 29 played, I dreamt that i placed all my money on 28 and big win came!!! On number 28! Oh my gosh my mind is in a battlefield even when i am asleep. I woke up with that one. Its my day 2 away from gambling. I am stopping. I got to. To save myself. Thankfully it was a dream. I am set free from this moment forward.

[Seanraj4731]

Good day Craig . You on day 6 stay strong brother. You are doing wat needs to be done to getting your life in order. Keeping on this site and being completely honest to ur love one. Continue to be encourage. I am here to support in giving positive words to uplift you and myself as well. I spoke to my friend today abt what i am going through. He thought i had everything together. He just saw a smoke screen. He told me that he never thought i would of been in that light that is gambling. He was shocked to know what i was going through. But he urges me to stop and get back my life together. I am thankful.and was honest when i told him everything.

[Seanraj4731]

The words we tell ourselves on a daily is the key to success. If you live by the gun you will die by the gun. I say that to say this yes we must admit we have our weakness and our mind is lost with this addiction. You know within yourself you are in better place from this moment on. With positive words from good people who are on this site struggling just as you we are here to encourage each other that life is getting better one moment one day at a time. Stay strong at this time. Forget the losses know it will never come back once you chase after it through gambling. It never ever works. Quote Doing something over and over and expecting a different result is not a reality my friend. Stick to positive videos watch Santos Jr. Soldiers of Self Mastery on youtube. Continue checking in on your journal here. And you going rise above this.

[Seanraj4731]

Sat 07 Dec 2019 Day 2

I am thankful for life good health and perfectly new mindset. I am choosing to remain positive about my life. I am being thankful for the support and encouragement to make wise valuable decisions in my life from this moment on and moving forward. Goal 1 clear off my debts, ppl i owe,personal loans,credit card. I got to get my life back away from that point where i first put money into the slot to play roulette. I need to get back the feeling of seeing my time as value and saving money for a better life despite the major loss i made by losing my family. I know it hurts it pains makes that urge come back again everytime the mind thinks abt it. Fight the good fight think positive stay positive be positive say positive words uplifting words to remew the mind. Self talk. This journal. I need to stick to it. Find a new activity get involve in something to distract my mind frm where it not suppose to be. I will i am going to start my new day filled with good hope and a strong mind. After all i read on the forum the same gut feeling everyone shares i been there and now i am making a brand new chapter of my life starting now i need to keep on keeping on. Thankful for all comments made. Lets keep up this new mind of staying stronger together in this fight for better life. People i love you guys i am thankful.

[Seanraj4731]

Hi manjikot
You ought to be thankful man. Your wife is standing with you by your side. Unfortunately my situation is different so i am urging others who got their love ones love and support to be honest and tell them everything. I did and well it didnt work out for me. Be thankful man. Do the right thing and let them trust you all over again by being honest always. Keep it up man i urge to post everyday on this site man. It will help. This site i need to be addicted to right now to express how i felt. Continue to stay positive man. You can do this you are doing this to rise above the sinking ground.

[Seanraj4731]

Yes brother craig thanks for the support tru the words of inspiration

[Seanraj4731]

Thanks for the comments ryan. I am going transfer the money tru online banking so i will not be physically holding money. It wil be transferred to the loan account, credit card account, clearing up those debts. I been burn alot tru gambling. And quote Doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result do not happen in the real world. Spinning top on mud. I am going to rise above this. I have lost over $400,000 within 5 years of gambling only on roulette machines. Never had a big win yet i keep going and going chasing after losses. Now i am lost the most valuable assest in my life.. my son. He will not be living with me. He will be with his mom in south africa. I am in Trinidad and Tobago. Thank you for words of advice and support.

[Seanraj4731]

Goodday Steev
This is Sean wow travelling and visit new places for the xmas season i am sure is amazing experience. Enjoy it man. I know very soon i will experiencing such an wonderful adventures as seen in the movies esp those spy movies mostly filmed in europe. Simply Wonderful rich history of anicent cities and the stories of its origins. Soon come!!! Be safe Steev. Thanks for sharing.

[Seanraj4731]

I am truly thankful for the advice i need to use in my life from this moment onwards. I should develop an good addiction to this site geared towards giving uplifting words and guidance to those who feel this way. I am thankful. Being alive and having a perfectly good health.

[Author]

Posts