[Seanraj4731]

Wonderful moments. I feel so refresh. I feeling absolutely awesome. Feel good feelings rushing over me. Renewing my mind. Refocusing on my self worth. Not one urge came to me. Got money in my pocket got bank cards credit cards in my wallet and i am feeling so good about my life. I love it. Thankful for having a perfectly new healthy mind body and spirit. Blessings to all who read this. Thank you. Stay positive.

[Seanraj4731]

Thank you for sharing i have stopped gambling since 06/12/19 I am living my best life now. Key focus using now is my Self worth, being addicted to positive affirmations ,self talk, journaling and self recovery. You have given a honest account of everything you done to be GF for 260 days. Congrats man. You are doing a great job. You are observing your thought patterns now thankfully you shared that and it is very great that you do. You recognize where you are and where you going to be. I applaud you. You are an amazing person. Believe in your self. You got this brother. You can read other people journal and you can relate to it. This website helped me alot. I am very thankful for taking the time to explore it.

[Seanraj4731]

Good day kin as i read your journal it reminded me about those same thoughts i had whenever i lose money whenever my wife quarrel over the family finances whenever i owe people money and the credit card sends me a letter on making payments. I felt that same thorn in my flesh. 

Kin you and you alone is aware of your mind and you act upon your thoughts. Before you speak the power of words lies on the tongue. I change the way i speak to myself especially when i fully explored this website read people journal and observe their thought pattern it is the same when it comes to this addiction.

Key to starting clean is to empty your mind by renewing it each moment you are awake spend some time reading people testimonies on this forum. Observe your thought rethink reset your mind. Key words to use:” I am Going To……..” you fill in the rest of what you see yourself living from this moment onwards.  Continue to keep journal note your progress. Reward your self with simple words of thankfulness. Start with simple things being awake alive and well,be thankful for what you have…. continue to seek positive reinforcement to help in your recovery. Focus on your self worth. Believe in yourself. You recognize that you are a amazing person. No matter what keep positive. I am rooting for you. You got my support i am 3 weeks gf and i am thankful for it it is the best gift i gaven myself this xmas and continuing into the new year 2020. I have a perfectly good health to which i am very thankful for. Kin i believe you ginna start making that difference now.

Have a bless day. Keep strong you got this…

[Seanraj4731]

Absolutely positive vibes flowing in those words love that. Amazing feeling of having a great health. Your mind is renewed by these wonderful moments you shared with your family. 

Unfortunately i gonna cross that bridge of consequences of actions this addiction had on the family. I am gonna rise above this and move on.

[Seanraj4731]

Thank you for posting and being honest about whats happening to you. I am recovering from this addiction and it was on and off but 3 weeks ago i am where you are now. I came on this website and explored it reading others in this habit. It struck a nerve in the mind to completely stop. I am grateful to be free of it and i am focused more on self worth and recovery. Questions you gonna ask yourself each moment as you observing your thoughts : Do i want a messed up health? Do i want to continue living like this? The key to stop this is constant renewing of your mind. Observation of your thoughts. The journal helped me out alot. Reading other people’s testimonies

[Seanraj4731]

I appreciate your feedback and being honest. After 3 years GF what was your mindset at that time before that relapse? What was the task you took is it from GA meetings? Do GA groups gave you tasks to complete? I research GA on youtube and found not much abt what happens in the meetings. I dont know if it is a secret society type of meeting? I know alot of AA groups in the area. Basically everyday there is a meeting at each of the schools in the district. Tonight i will be attending AA meeting and i am gonna speak abt this gambling addiction. So i will inform you of my progress. Again i am gonna focus on my self recovery. There are no thoughts or urges of going to gamble.

Thank you steev. Stay strong brother. 

[Seanraj4731]

I appreciate your positive feedback and i am gonna take all into great consideration. Point well taken abt self recovery firstly since i just recently stop. Its an idea i had when i decided to stop. But i relapsed and i didnt bother with it until today. I really appreciate all that you have typed vera for taking time out to give those wonderful suggestions. I understand fully and i will attend that GA meeting on the first fri 2020. Thank you vera.

[Seanraj4731]

Havent read from you brother. Please keep posting on your progress. We are rooting for you.

[Seanraj4731]

Its the last weekend of the year of decade and yes alot will be happening those who get their salaries yerterday and those who are wanted to win big at the casinos bar pubs etc. I am gonna stay positive on my self worth!! I had a discussion with Wayne, a CG, i remember seeing him betting on the roulette machine when i used to gamble. I saw him selling fruits on the side of the road in the village where i lived, so i decided to have a talk with him. I  started by asking how is everything he told me he out here making a honest dollar during the holidays. I asked him if he still gambles on the roulette he told he stopped betting big, off and on he will bet with a $20 or a $40 dollars and thats it. Once he wins $100 and over he will cash out. He told me before he gambled away $100,000 in one day time. I was stunned by this, he said that those roulette machines destroyed alot of families lives and even caused a high suicide rate among young adults, who cant stop and have mounting of debts. I told him i just losted over $4*** in 5 yrs and his replied was he lost well over 2 million. I knew him from rearing animals and having a farm. His story is one of many and i am thinking i am gonna help those who seem like there is no hope in coming out of gambling . The floor is open for your suggestions on this forum how do i make a difference. Where do i start and how do i go about this making that difference to those who are gambling in those roulette machines?. Here in Trinidad since the introduction of those roulette machine which are found in mostly bars pubs and casino the Chinese have imported alot of those machines to establish themselves. They hooked many people into losing their monies and they are getting richer everytime people choose to bet all their money away. I was one of those who also got caught up as well and now as a reflection i am gonna start to make that difference in those lives who are affected with this problem, With you all help of course. Any suggestions concerns questions will be helpful. I am gonna print out a flyer to highlight the positive life of living gamble free and how to start or begin your steps to self recovery and to discover self worth. I know there will be those who are ashame to even admit to this problem. How do we see that only by hitting rock bottom lets try a different to avoid hitting rock bottom and stop! How do recognize it? When we actually stop? Do people who gamble on these roulette machines do it for fun or the thrill of it? How do we as people who are discovering self worth and recovery be that beacon of hope to those who are in distress? Where do we start? Do we start by waiting for those who are willing to admit to this problem? How? I never saw no advertise on self recovery from this addiction no where not in the streets newspapers media etc. Only on the internet. I am thinking here most people who gamble some may access the internet and seek help but there isnt a GA close by the one GA up in the capital city. I am thinking of setting up one in the south area. How do i go about establish that? I know alot of AA groups in the area. I worked as a security officer for 10 years at the schools in the district so i have a idea should i team up with AA ? Please i would love to read your suggestions. I am gonna help those in need of getting out. I thank you.

[Seanraj4731]

Thats where our minds ought to be right now and moving forward. I gonna keep on that self recovery path despite of. I am gonna be a better person now and staying positive always. Living in the present moments observing the thoughts the mind is emitting now and keeping it renew as a each passing by i am aware of where i am and where i ought to be doing. At the moment i am thankful to give back and words are seeds so once planted and nurtured the right way those seeds will take root and grow into a wonderful and amazing feeling of change and accomplishments. Do keep posting Jane you are dping excellent. 

[Seanraj4731]

Good day all
Keeping and staying true to that mindset of self worth. Thankful for a new day and a each moment i am focus on perfectly good health.
Staying positive on the pathway of self recovery

[Seanraj4731]

Moving forward three wonderful weeks of gaining back my perfectly healthy body and mind. I am giving thanks always for the 3 weeks and continue to be consistance in focusing on positive thinking rewiring renewing the mind each moment. Those urges for self worth is taking over my mind. I am gonna stay on the pathway of it. Loving the moments and keeping this brand new mindset of living positive and focusing on the beauty that life has to offer each moment i am alive and awake. Loving life to the maximum… embracing this new found joy of living a clean and happy life with a smile on my face i conquer each day moment by thinking of living my best life. Thinking saying positive words to reframe my mindset. Observe the beauty of my thoughts now and being in an amazed by the renewal of pure goodness and simple living. Enjoying sharing giving and supporting those who are gonna better themselves. Thank you all for your support on this forum. I am gonna accomplish my goals set out for 2020. I am planning on new things. And as we progress into the new year i will keep you all inform of my progress. Be bless and stay on that self worth path.

[Seanraj4731]

Bless holidays to you and family. Thank you for the comments. Its a pleasure to meet you as well and of course we shall keep upto date on our progress each day. I appreciate you all on this forum. I know you gonna be GF for now on and moving forward.

Stay positive.

[Seanraj4731]

Good day vera. Thank you for your comments. I will be patient and of course focusing on recovery and self worth. Do have a wonderful time with your family and friends. I am home relaxing playing video games with my son.

Stay positive. 

[Seanraj4731]

You are an amazing person. Stay positive and have an awesome time with your family. Happy merry xmas. Keep on keeping on.

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