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I am glad that I can see your post. The rest you know better than I do.
See you soon Vera.
All the best

[sam.sam]

I am glad that I can see your post. The rest you know better than I do.
See you soon Vera.
All the best

[sam.sam]

It was really nice to see you in the group and also knowing that you are getting enjoyment from your activities.
The pleasure of being with you and others is not some thing I can appreciate enough.
Any think that I have learn about addiction was trough people in here who helped me.

We are a community and we are doing that together. I hope you will always be positive and happy.
All the best P.
Sam.

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Today was a good day for me. I attended few rooms and chat a lot.
I was thinking about recovery and the way I am feeling. I imagined a balance scale, on one side is gambling urges, and on the other side is other hobbies and positive activities. If we feel one side with activities and hobbies the other side will loses the weight until it becomes weightless.
So I need keep adding to things that I do in recovery to fill the scale balance.
One day at a time

[sam.sam]

Today I noticed that I have to work on my budgeting skills. As an old habit I was trying to keep all the appointments, bills to pay, in my memory, and not following a system like a diary. Yesterday I over spent. Paid a bill that I could arrange to be paid in two instalments. With the budget that I have in mind, it is placing me in a position that I may not be able to pay one of my bills this month. In reality I can afford that( some one else is keeping my money for me) I can ask him to pay the bill for me from my saving.
It is slow process but gradually the cloud is going away, and I can see that I am paying more attention to my financial situation in a logical way.
Taking responsibility for my actions, last week I lived with very small amount of money and the last days I could not even afford a loaf of bread or a pint of milk, but I did not borrow money(I could). If I was gambling I would have thought, what is a big deal? I borrow and pay that back. But now I care about my personality.
I have to live the way I can, and not necessarily the way I like to.
I accept what I can not change and change what I can change in my life. And being here is teaching me how to recognize the difference between the two.
Today I am fine.

[sam.sam]

Hi P,
I hav not been able to get to the room on time, and ther for have not seen you for a while. I hope you are feeling better today. Iread your post here an hour ago, and while I was doing some work in my flat, I was still thinking what can I write to make you a littel happier or make you smile.
I was thinking to tell you when you have time and feel like going out, go and buy yourself some flowers, I like roses and jasmin, and place them in a vase infron of you and look at them, feel the freshness and inhale the fragrant, close your eyes and keep the image of that flower in your mind for a second.
Then see how you feel.
There is a poem from an iranian poet Omar Khayyám (1048 – 1131‎) I thought you may like it.

O friend, for the morrow let us not worry
This moment we have now, let us not hurry
When our time comes, we shall not tarry
With seven thousand-year-olds, our burden carry.
All the best P.
Sam.

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Thams Harry. You are right it is the browser. I used the google as well and was the same problem. Now I am on with iPod and wifi. Win is being formatted. See you later.

[sam.sam]

Thank you harry. Do not worry I am going to format the hard drive, and fresh install now. see you soon

[sam.sam]

Hi Harry. I will try now. I am using eternet. I am usig winxp-IE v8
Itried to get to help line. I went in but could not see any one.
The error message was: Error: TypeError: Object doesn’t support this property or method

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Last night I was listening to a talk on you tube and I heard I heard interesting story about a fact in medical world.
The guy was talking about Wilder Graves Penfield, who was a pioneering neurosurgeon once dubbed “the greatest living Canadian”. As well as expanding the methods and techniques of brain surgery, he devoted much thinking to mental processes and continued until his death to contemplate whether there was any scientific basis for the existence of the human soul.
He once had a patient under local Anastasia, so the brain does not feel pain when he wanted to operate on it. He was stimulating different part of the brain to see what was happening. when he was stimulating the motor cortex in the brain, which is responsible for body movements, he notices that the patients arm starts to move upwards, then he ask the patients are you moving your arm? and he says no, it is moving up with out me controlling that. The dr ask him that this time when your arms wants to move up, try to stop it and change the direction that your arm is moving. Then while he was stimulation the brain again, he noticed that the patient was able to resist the movement and change the direction of his arm.
In conclusion the dr said, the brain commands the arm to move in one direction but there is a choice maker (the patient)who can over ride the command of the brain to the body. So he says I know where the command post is, but where is the commander(the choice maker)?
It was interesting for me so I wanted to share that and say that we can make a choice even when the brain telling us to go and gamble.
We need to get closer to our self. Study our own behavior.

All the best.

[sam.sam]

Today I received a phone call from my cousin. I felt so good. We talked about so many things. He is buying his new house in Switzerland and invited me to go and visit him in April or May.
I am glad I have so many many who care.
Sam.

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thank you for being here Sad. I have many times thought about why we are helping others and had many questions raised in my mind.
Is not it that we like others to treat us the same? is not it that we feel others are not doing what we expect them to do? It might be long berried thought that now is coming to surface, when we saw how helpless we are when in gambling actions? when I was younger and could not or I would not dare standing against my older brother, who was dictating his will to me? Is not that there and then no body tried to help me? no body understood what I was feeling in my small world? And still feeling that they are not able to understand what their action created in my life?
I am not blaming what happened to me on them, but just saying it all might be connected some how, to what we are doing and might do.
Helping others for me some times in here is like I am helping my own mother who is far from me. Some times I feel I am helping that child within me and showing him there is help now available, and telling him to rest and not to worry.
It was just my thought.
All the best.

[sam.sam]

I have notice there is one very important part to highlight here. You have some one beside yourself to fight for. I assume if it was not for your partner, you would have been in that vicious circle and playing and betting your money away. We all need to be awaken by some thing, I think for you it was your partner and that she is playing very important part in your life.
We are, when in action in a numb state of mind that we do not really realize who or what we care about, why we are running so fast for, what is money for in our life, or in my case, what we are living for.
You also mentioned that you do not really have control any more on how long you play and lose all your money, it is not even important what game you play, as long as you can bet and wait for the result.
We all in here have been trough all or some of your experiences, and more or less feel what you feel, we did lie to our closed one, may be not to get money from them but to make sure we do not hurt them knowing we are still playing.
I just want to tell you that these feelings are so normal for you to feel. What we all agree in here is that we can not stop alone. And that we need help. We need to follow some steps that people who have been successful have taken to overcome the addiction.
And that is what it is special about this site and organisation. Come here more often, write about your true feelings, anger, happy time, and I promise you, that you will be in a better world. Think of your life as one day at a time. Is it difficult to not gamble for a day? every day we only have 1 day to think about. That is the way a lot of us have succeeded in keeping our recovery going.
All the best.
Sam.

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Hi 4 life. I am glad to see you here.
I am sure you will soon find all the tools you need towards achieving your goals.
One day at a time.
All the best.

[sam.sam]

Hi, well come and well done on starting a thread on the forum. I am a CG in recovery myself and have been using the forum as my starting point towards my recovery.
Reading your thread one can see you have been trough a lot in your life. I am sure with your determination and caring people in here you will find all the tools you need to overcome gambling . I personally find that stop gambling is the first step towards recovery and that counselling may play a big part in the recovery process.
As you mentioned that you are due to go to Australia, I have found some web addresses that might be helpful in self- exclusion process for you.
All the best
Sam.
https://www.austgamingcouncil.org.au/self-exclusion-programs?field_program_venues_tid=All

http://www.mgv.org.au/self_exclusion_program

http://www.gamblinghelponline.org.au/accessing-support/self-exclusion/

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