Hey there,
sorry to jump on this – i’m in a very similar situation.
About a month ago i decided to try spread betting – in 24 hours i was up £3K and loved the feeling and deluded myself into thinking i was a great investor.
Fast forward and I have lost my own savings of 15K plus borrowed another 10k and lost that too.
3 years ago i was in 50K debt that i brought down to almost zero this year and built up my savings and here i am and it took only a month. i kept on chasing the losses thinking that the markets will behave how i want them only to have things crashing down again.
and the worst part is that i know about recovery because i am in recovery for other addictions and its all the same.
here is to accepting that its gone (and despite saying that i’m thinking of borrowing more to try one more bet)…