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Hi Vera – Where does gambling come into all this indeed ??
I’m signing off for the summer, no internet access until Oct., will miss hearing from you.
At least I will be in a safe place.  Life goes on, saw the new grandson last weekend and he is thriving.  My  Dad seems to have hit a plateau, Mom coping well with all the changes.  And I still feel sooo grateful for all the blessings in my life.  My husband too has been changed and is content with his life, I can honestly say we have never gotten along better.  I have been focusing on my health, going out for runs and walks and am trying to break my addiction to sugar.
Life without gambling can be very good, and I am now seeking contentment and serenity, not drama and excitement.  A counsellor once asked me – If you were being the best person you could be at this point in time, what would that look like ?  Still so much room for improvement, but one day at a time…
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Dear Bettie –
When my Dad was diagnosed with Alzheimers my Mom did a questionaire at the neurologists office – she answered yes to so many questions it felt like the writer of the form had been living with her.
Does your Mom seem to be living in the past – talking about up events that happened more than 10 years ago ?  Does she bring up the same topic repeatedly ? 
I hope your Mom does not have dementia – but there are medications that can help if she is seen soon enough by qualified medical Dr.  Does your Mom drive and how are her driving skills ?
Not living with your Mom doesn’t mean that your assessment is not accurate – my Mom who lives with Dad was the first to see things and report them, but everyone else didn’t see it, or maybe we were not ready to ….
ps. – belated congrats on your huge bonus pay at work – how nice to have your hard work rewarded..
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Thanks for your kind replies, Vera, Paul, Bettie and Carole..
Vera, you are right, the baby would have been welcomed no matter what, but I really never appreciated what a blessing a healthy baby is… things like the gender seem so unimportant now.  I hope you are enjoying a gamble free life, as you deserve all the peace it brings. 
Carole – you were right that ultrasounds have their limitations, for sure. I think the hardest part was waiting and not knowing what would happen, but we never know what life will throw at us, do we.  Trying not to worry is hard when you want your children’s life to go smoothly. 
So today I live my life in a state of gratitude for the many good things that are happening.  Stay strong my GT friends..

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Good news today – my son and DIL had a heathy baby boy this AM – the baby does not have Down Syndrome as the ultrasound indicated.  I feel a great weight off my shoulders, have nothing of any consequence to worry about now.  Life goes on, had a great vacation in Mexico, am trying to lose weight, working on the home renos,  and now I must go shop for baby gift.  Planning a trip to the city soon to meet the little one..Just for today, I will not gamble away my time, freedom or peace of mind.

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Hi Bettie –
You could not have looked bad, you are beautiful inside and out.  I have seen you and know this to be true. You have a wicked sense of humor, you are so smart, and caring. The negative self talk will onyl make you feel worse, so stop it !!  I hope the PT helps with the physical pain, and good things continue to happen for you.  Wishing you a Happy Christmas, and New Year of Peace and Prosperity.
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Hey Larry –
Well done on reaching your 60 day milepost, those urges must be getting weak by now, as you gain resolve from acting from your strength and wisdom, not just reacting to an urge.  I chanted those words often- about God eluding me, but you are so right – it was me that eluded God.  You often take things one level deeper in your posts – they are a joy to read.  May your Holiday Season be a time of peace and joy – enjoy the good things that are in your life, rest and stay well.
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HI Bettie – I can so relate to what you are going through with the neighbors – we live across from a medium size apartment complex whose residents are allowed to own pets.  I am soooo sick and tired of them taking their dogs for a walk and letting them do their business on my lawn.  I am so torn because I know that getting into a neighbor war in a smaller town isn’t a good thing but their lack of consideration is driving me nuts.  Today I stood at the window and had to restrain myself from going outside and giving a young lady what for.  Anyhow, good for you for not gambling , as a cure for loneliness. Trust me, everyone feels lonely sometimes.  Maybe we just feel it more because we are more sensitive ???  Take care, have a good gamble free day.
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Dear (( Bettie )) –
So sorry to hear you have been in such pain – at least you were able to get an appointment with a specialist without a long wait – are you able to sleep at night with all that pain ?  So kind of you to step in and help your brother – you are a very caring sister indeed.  The world woud be a better place if we were all like you.  Good for you for recognizing the temptation of the new machines and where they would lead you – it’s really just same old, same old, isn’t it ?
Take care of yourself and hope to hear from you soon.
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Hi Larry – I haven’t had time to read postings going back in time, yet, because, work sucks a lot of time out of my life.  But I did find time to read yours, as I know how hard it is to give in to gambling after a lot of clean time.  But don’t be so hard on yourself, you are only human, after all.  Hugs to you, and I admire your honesty in coming clean.  You have the knowledge of what to do to get back on the recovery road, and what you really want in your life.  Why do we chose to do the thing that only bring us remorse ?   I feel you may be getting closer to resolving some of those issues that drive you to want to gamble, and that as you let go of them it will be easier to let go of your desire for gambling. 
I have always valued your support and wisdom, no matter what your clean date, and look forward to continuing this journeywith you.  Love always,
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p.s  In St Louis during the current playoffs for the Stanly Cup, something that mostly only US/Canadian ice hockey fans will understand, there is only blue — the St Louis Blues ?
Well, enjoy the playoffs, Larry….I didn’t know you were a hockey fan.  Canadian teams may be out of the playoffs, but most of the players on American teams are still Canadians !!  Hehe. 
Hope you are keeping well, wishing you another fine recovery day.
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Bettie – Yes, I’m back.  Sooo great to meet you at last. I so enjoyed our visiting, eating and touring around your beautiful city.  Thank you for all you did for us.  I had an amazing time.  You are such a beautiful person, so smart and so funny.   I hope you get your medical issues sorted out soon, take care and stay strong.
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dear Kathryn – I just have to tell you how much I laughed when I read about your mother – the human fat detector.  My father was the fat detector in our family.  If dieting was an Olympic sport my sisters would own the podium.  My mother was the human pregnancy detector – she could look at a woman 2 days pregnant and could tell. Spooky. 
Time and perspective make these things funny .  Hope you are keeping well, K.
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hi Vera, not seen you in a bit – seems odd – are you okay ?? Just for today, I will not gamble away my time, freedom or peace of mind.

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thanks Carole, but I have had this problem before and it does resolve on its own. The sore throat is settling down already although the chest thing takes longer.  I have to work here tomorrow and get my hair cut Friday here, the decongestants do help so will wait a bit and see.  Then I’m off to Edmonton to care for my granddaughter while her Mom and Dad go to Las Vegas with friends.  ON Tuesday, back here, Work Wednesday and then Chicago.  Time is flying by .Just for today, I will not gamble away my time, freedom or peace of mind.

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Hi Cat – yes, sign me up.  I will use all the support I can get.  Have a great gamble free day.
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