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We only win when we stop gambling. It’s time to fight this addiction once and for all. I have won my money back a thousand times but never walked away.. I won 100k in two single days. Lost it in one hour or so. We are not gambling for the money no more but for the rush. Find a new hobby to give you this rush running, sport or fitness.

Don’t beat yourself up too much. Forgive yourself and accept the fact u can’t turn back time and get the money back. If u continue u will not only lose your money but everything u have.

Keep strong!

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Thank you for your support I really appreciate it. When u stop gambling the first thing u need to do is learn how to value money again. Before I was gambling my money management was on top. I never missed a payment and I could spend money without any problems. Like everyone else it started from small wins and went bad. I’m just the one who loves money and hates losing. It got to the point I would never imagine going too. I made numbers some would dream off but still it was not enough for me. I hope I don’t have to rely on luck anymore and get it by myself. Because gambling is a big fat lie. I almost lost everything I build. All my friends I knew I lost because of this addiction. The most important thing is I didn’t loose my mind. Some would kill themselve what I have been through. I don’t want to play the victim here but it is alsno not my fault I don’t know how to gamble. Back in the days I never knew how a rich person could gamble his money away. I know now! Only hope for us is to stop gambling forever. I just hope life will give me better things in life because I have been to hell and back so many times. You are very right when u wrote on your journal it’s not about the money. It’s more about the time. I’m looking forward to invest my time in better things.

Wish you well!

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Thanks for your feedback Steeve I always see you help others fighting this nasty addiction. I respect you for that sir. What I typed earlier whas indeed a typo as I’m typing from my phone. 

I do realize this sickness it’s hard to climb up when your so much down already. I almost hit rock bottom but I won’t let that happen. I’m ready to fight myself. I’ve been here before.

Accepting the current situation and the fact time and money is gone is hard for anyone. As long as I do that 100% I can make it. I never had a problem with alcohol or drugs even thoug I’m an addictive person.

As for support I think the world doesn’t see how serious this gambling addiction is. It’s worst than any other addiction. Yet there is now enough help. 

Let’s hope we all make it!

Have a nice weekend buddy. 😉

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So here is day two or should I say day one. I recalculated my bets comparing it with bills and bankaccount. I was 300 euro short for bills. Instead of finding ways to pay these bills. Input 100 euro on my gambling account to make that 300. I blew the 100 in a blink of a eye. Luckily I can pay my rent otherwise they would kick me out for real this time. I’m not planning to do this again. I’m playing with some dragonfire here. Only way to get the money I need is to sell something and now gamble.

Epic isn’t it? Few days you are up 15k the next day u don’t gave money left to pay the bills. I will not press the replay button again gotta look forward.. Think about my future!

Thanks for reading…

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Callmecrazy how are u holding up? Hope your doing well!

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When we win something then we think we are the expert and will beat the casino. But we forget that if that was the case then they would have been bankrupt not us. Gamblers can not control themselve if they loose few bets, that psycholigical effect we can not control over it. So in the end we loose everything and cry. When we play then we dont go to any blogs and forums to read about gambling. We come here when we reach at the rock bottom. I know and I believe everyone here know themselves how they are feeling about it. We ruin out happy living life for this gambling.

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So like I said today I feel great no urges to gamble anymore. I hope it stayes like this. I am numb even though I lost 15k that could pay off all my debts and start over again. I know if I would take the money and walk away. I would be back the same or the next day.

Luckily my mom and gf did not notice any weird emotions. Normally I would been broke and pale for a few days. I still can laugh.

I don’t want to be in that circle anymore. I see it as another mistake I made. This time without so much damage because I can pay my bills and debts. I remind myself it could be different.

Day 2 of no gambling is on the way. Have a nice day!

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Thanks for your support @Steev. Hopefully we will win against the devil.

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Matter of a fact is a normal person would not even gamble a dollar. And the normal people who would gamble do this once a year. Then u can win. But if u gamble for a year two three or more you are nothing but a problem gambler. U have to know this is an addictive thing. We are all different people with different personalities and different jobs. But the addiction, the feelings and the things we go through are all the same. People who know I won that kind of money. They don’t understand why I didn’t withdraw. Because I still got goals in my life. I want to start my own business. I still do. It would be a lot easier if I had that kind of money but I don’t.

Accept the fact u will never even win. Gambling is a big fat lie. Tell yourself u are not a gambler every single day and that you don’t know how to gamble. If i knew everything I know now. I would just pay someone the money I owe in debts just not to have that feeling of being worthless, desperate, stressful and hurt. Not only for myself but also for the people close to me. 

This addiction can drive u to madness and u can lose everything in your life and even take your own life. It can make u suicidal. Only thing we can do now accept the fact. The damage has been done and u can’t turn back the time. That time and your money is gone. Don’t get in the same circle again. U will selfdestruct your life. It just isn’t worth it. Life can be great appriciate the small things in life that you still owe. Set new goals and crush them all.

Wishing you guys the best!

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@Callmecrazy Like I said for us CG’s it’s just impossible to win even if we win a million. It would not matter u know we cannot win. We can’t handle the euforia of winning and all the dopamine that’s been released. When I won big amounts of money I was still battling with myself not to play anymore. The dopamine combined with adrenaline is so dangerous.. We do things we don’t want to do. So many times I won and could get out of debt and trouble but I didn’t.

@Steev I have been following your progress buddy. The only time we win is only when we stop gambling forever. Gambling is the worst thing u can do. It will make a monster out of you. I never stole a pen in my life. Gambling made me a thief, lier and a manipulator towards my family and friends. I think a gambling addicting is underrated. People do not understand they think u are just dump flushing your money down the toilet. It is more then that. It’s the most horrible addicting a person can have. The suicide rates tell it all.

Today I am quite positive and numb I am not even mad at myself anymore like I used too. I’m kinda relieved that the money is gone so I cannot gamble anymore. I know I can’t win. I have won most of the time playing roulette but I never walked away and I probably never will. Not in a few months, years or lifetime. Every new day is a new battle. I don’t want to lose all what still is left from this ravage. I just have to forgive myself, forget and live on.

Thanks for your replies guys wish u all the best fighting this battle against the devil.

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